i fucking hate people sometimes..
you cant get your life even a little bit on track, i fucking hate how much you fall apart. i hate hearing it, i hate knowing it,.. just fucking leave me alone, i cant stand you any more.. take aa, and stick with it this time, you fucking need help, and you get it,.. why dont you just fucking take it, before you lose everyone else............
natasha: you told me numourous times that you quit drinking and that you had ONCE been addicted to it, but quit, the first time i met you you said youd been an alchoholic at 10, but took aa, you made me believe that you quit,.. you lied to me, and i cant stand it.. i didnt tell you sooner because i just realized this.. i didnt begin to feel this way about you until very recently, during the same time frame in which i told you, im sorry to make you believe ive been keeping feelings from you, i havent, as soon as i felt this way, i told you, i just cant stand lies, ive lied, my hearts been broken from being lied to.. and its always in vein we had lies in our relationship, and i apologized for them as much as i could.. you made me feel terrable for them, but youve been lieing about your addictions? i cant stand that, and that is why i left you..
wishkah:are you one of the people she saved that she chooses to say never returned the favor?im sorry you feel such hatered for me.. but saying that your trying to give me advice, to help me, then threaten me with murder doesnt make much sense, and if you care so much about natashas feelings, then why would you try to kill some one she loves.. i told her id come back too her, i need time.. im not going to abandon her. she told me that it was permanent, when she lied to me, i stopped believing any thing shed say,.. i couldnt stand it, and im sorry that it hurt your feelings so much, you try too look out for people but what your doing adds to the drama that slits wrists... i hate having enemies, i hate having people out of my life.. i never do this.. im going to come back to her, i just need time,.. but its people like you that make me so hesitant to let myself into her life, when her friends want me too be dead,..
natasha, im sorry, but your darling wishkah, would be the only reason id completly leave you... i unblocked you from aim, if youd like to talk
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