Compilation of thoughts_part4 & 5
one
why does everyone think, my life is his business? i don't fucking want this. i do not need your fucking questions. i will not give you any of the goddamn answers. why do you need to fuck with me all the time? why do you want to ruin my fucking world?? i don't need your fucking life experience i love to face troubles on my own. close the fucking door! you know shit about how i feel! you know shit what i'm thinking about! so don't fucking tell me what to do!
two
you are not a slut to please everyone! you do not care about money and luxurous life. you just try to express yourself in a way. noone cares. cause noone knows. that's the point. i wonder what would they all say if you died today.. endless regrets .. those fucking live demoes would be as precious as gold.. any scrap of the info about the group, about your thoughts would accidentally become so fucking important.. fuck them all. you have your own way. your own ideas. you'll cope with it. cause you are Me.
three
it's cool with me. you can tell anything you'd like. but don't be too naive. cause i'm so fucking silently furious. once you touch me and my songs i will break your face, cut your hands slowly, one by one, happily enjoying your dark blood on the floor.. i will watch your lifeless body hanging upside down.. and finally you'll loose your head. i will make small cuts on your neck and use all my strength to tear your head away with my own hands. i will step on your shoulders and simply pull it away.. what a nice view it will be then! yes, i can tolerate critics. just need to prepare myself a little for it..