*sOmE pEoPlE wAnT iT aLl i DoNt WaNt NoThInG aT aLl*
okay i am writting it here and some might see it as complaning but GET THE HELL OVER IT!
i am so lonely. i broke up with john and i dont regret it at all but seeing rachel and braden and ******** and ***** together make me miss having someone to hold. right now i wish that this certain someone was here and i just want to be in his arms. its cold and i want to look at the stars and feel like time is standing still. yeah cheesy but tomarrow rachel and brittney want me to go with them and braden and most likely justin to brittneys house to hang out and stay the night. i hate being the fith wheel cause it makes me think about ricky and that makes me want to die. i hate being emo and i hate even more that the whole thing with ricky still bothers me. i think that meeting bob was a bad idea because he reminded me so much of ricky that it made me want him bak. i thought that i was finally over it but the pain comes and goes like headaches do. i have alot of things on my mind and my teenage years are fading quickly, and what i will remember is hating my mom and always worrying about stupid shit. yea it sounds dumb but i dont even like to go to school. i see rachel and braden and HOLY SHIT they are so cute and they like each other so much, then i see tom and kasey and it makes me want someone like that. it hurts so bad cause i am not what most people would look and see as "hot" no i dont preticularly want to be but id like to be able to have guys wanting me so to speak. this probally sounds very middle school ish but u know what its how i feel. what makes it even gayer is that i am sitting here feeling lonely and CRYING for gods sake.
my mom wants to work at quest so i might be leaving and i wish all that are left with her the best.
I need a vacation i think i am going to go spend a weekend with my brother up in sugiune (sp) party a bit or what not...
but for now i am going cause its din din time
i am so lonely. i broke up with john and i dont regret it at all but seeing rachel and braden and ******** and ***** together make me miss having someone to hold. right now i wish that this certain someone was here and i just want to be in his arms. its cold and i want to look at the stars and feel like time is standing still. yeah cheesy but tomarrow rachel and brittney want me to go with them and braden and most likely justin to brittneys house to hang out and stay the night. i hate being the fith wheel cause it makes me think about ricky and that makes me want to die. i hate being emo and i hate even more that the whole thing with ricky still bothers me. i think that meeting bob was a bad idea because he reminded me so much of ricky that it made me want him bak. i thought that i was finally over it but the pain comes and goes like headaches do. i have alot of things on my mind and my teenage years are fading quickly, and what i will remember is hating my mom and always worrying about stupid shit. yea it sounds dumb but i dont even like to go to school. i see rachel and braden and HOLY SHIT they are so cute and they like each other so much, then i see tom and kasey and it makes me want someone like that. it hurts so bad cause i am not what most people would look and see as "hot" no i dont preticularly want to be but id like to be able to have guys wanting me so to speak. this probally sounds very middle school ish but u know what its how i feel. what makes it even gayer is that i am sitting here feeling lonely and CRYING for gods sake.
my mom wants to work at quest so i might be leaving and i wish all that are left with her the best.
I need a vacation i think i am going to go spend a weekend with my brother up in sugiune (sp) party a bit or what not...
but for now i am going cause its din din time