i wish i wasnt such a kid
i am feeling something and it is so confusing. i am scared and hurt and just plain shocked all at the same time. i wish i wasnt like this but yet again i have fallen for something that is way out of anything i could ever dream of. I wish that i could get a hit of reality and just have some one straight up tell me to get over him... but i fucking cant! im scared and i dont know what to do nemore... i dont want to be this gurl nemore that sits around and waits... i wish i was different... i want to be a totally different person who doesnt care and lives each day like it is the last enstead of wishing it was the last. but right now i dont know what to feel other then the fact that i am truely falling in love with someone that is totally not going to happen. FUCKING A!