Jun 26, 2002 12:12
gretchan left me
she said that she feels restless, she wants to be free, she wants to be 21 and run around and date the wrong people
so she left me
i didn't have a choice
she cheated on me a week ago
then she flew out to california to tell me for $1400 and beg for my forgiveness and try to make everything better
I figured that is she was honest enough to come out and tell me she really meant it
so i forgave her and she was happy
then she went back to louisville knowing that I stilled love her and she said she still loved me.
then i called her up because i hadn't heard from her in a while
she
she said that she couldn't be with me anymore. She said that she wanted to be with Juan Carlos instead. She doesn't want me anymore. But I didn't have a choice, I'm still in love with her, she is my morning day evening night my everything and she doesn't want me anymore. But she has my love and she runs around does what makes her happy, without me. I don't make her happy. but then why did she come out to tell me she was cheating on me, why did she come out and tell me she loved me? why did she do that? I forgave her, i told her I love her and she lied and told me she loved me too. Why?
i can't even think straight anymore.
what am i going to do without my heart?
i need it to be happy... but she needs to be free to be happy.
help