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Shades pulled for once.
It's these late at nights, that get me thinking.
It's the silences, I can't break.
I think I am becoming. My own best friend.
I hate myself, want to cut me to shreds.
I shouldn't have put in that cd. Or had that shot.
I should have given in when I shouldn't have given up.
Take your ties and your shoes. You will never run away.
You will never stay.
So judgemental, your bleeding of pride. And I'm bleeding inside.
I owed you that sunshine. Without the shades pulled for once.
I wanted the ocean, not a picket fence and a yard.
I take these pills, a mouthful at a time.
Don't see me falling back. It's where you remember me the most.
How happy I am, now that I have nothing to hold on to.
How lucky I am, to be caught in this box. Look around me right now and I'm lost.
It's these somber looks and purple hands, that get me thinking.
Not another road, I turned the wrong way on.
Another fear to implant, I'd already told you mine.
No question marks above the manniquins eyes.
Frozen faces have died.
But when the snow starts to melt, I fall through the ice.
Oh, I dream of you so much.
Embrace is that much better, than this taste of death.
Makes me colder.
I don't ever feel safe.
Makes me older.
I pull me to shreds. These hands were never good at much, but the pills hit my face. I'm swallowing again.
Never found a friend, who hurt me so much.
I'm out of bounds. All tied up.
Can't suck in the song. I am lost on my own.
Mom lost my hand, and then my memory. That first time, I thought it mattered. But repeat.
And I got used to being lost. Don't look for me. I'll never, look back.
Glazed eyes, fit to be gone. It can't be your fault. It's always been mine.
It's these late at nights, that get me thinking.
It's the silences, I can't break.
I think I am becoming. My own best friend.
I hate myself, want to cut me to shreds.
I shouldn't have put in that cd. Or had that shot.
I should have given in when I shouldn't have given up.
Take your ties and your shoes. You will never run away.
You will never stay.
So judgemental, your bleeding of pride. And I'm bleeding inside.
I owed you that sunshine. Without the shades pulled for once.
I wanted the ocean, not a picket fence and a yard.
I take these pills, a mouthful at a time.
Don't see me falling back. It's where you remember me the most.
How happy I am, now that I have nothing to hold on to.
How lucky I am, to be caught in this box. Look around me right now and I'm lost.
It's these somber looks and purple hands, that get me thinking.
Not another road, I turned the wrong way on.
Another fear to implant, I'd already told you mine.
No question marks above the manniquins eyes.
Frozen faces have died.
But when the snow starts to melt, I fall through the ice.
Oh, I dream of you so much.
Embrace is that much better, than this taste of death.
Makes me colder.
I don't ever feel safe.
Makes me older.
I pull me to shreds. These hands were never good at much, but the pills hit my face. I'm swallowing again.
Never found a friend, who hurt me so much.
I'm out of bounds. All tied up.
Can't suck in the song. I am lost on my own.
Mom lost my hand, and then my memory. That first time, I thought it mattered. But repeat.
And I got used to being lost. Don't look for me. I'll never, look back.
Glazed eyes, fit to be gone. It can't be your fault. It's always been mine.