More real content *shock*
So, I am now sitting in Zebulon, GA. Land of many kind people and no good coffee. Needless to say the lack of Espresso has made me drag my butt quite a bit the last few days. It does help that the doctor here very much wants to keep me full time. The fact that my last 3 assignments, all of which have been weeks long, have wanted to give me permanent position is very encouraging!
I really don't even know how to describe my current headspace. On one hand, I'm getting a lot done and doing pretty well with weight watchers. On the other hand I feel despair creeping up on me concerning how much there is still to be done and the multiple situations I can not positively affect for others. There are so many people I wish I could help but honestly there is not much I can do in most of these situations.
Money wise, we're about to hit a number of large outlays for house refinancing, apt rent, moving, etc. I have some money saved, but it's still a bit terrifying. We're also going to have to stop supporting financially the people that are living with us. Letting them live with us rent free is apparently not enough wiggle room for them to get their finances in order. J has been giving them his salary for the last 6 weeks to make ends meet, but at this point we need this money. He's also driving the wife to the job he got her pretty much every day, costing him free time and us a significant amount of gas money. I'm not sure he can say no to be honest though- this is his best friend in the world. Still it needs to be done. It's getting to the point that I am looking forward to moving just so we can be away from their constant needs.
I am totally avoiding even thinking about the fact that I will be leaving all of my chosen family top make this move. I've known for a while now that Atlanta is not my place, and have been staying for the people I love so much. But it's time.
mOER
I really don't even know how to describe my current headspace. On one hand, I'm getting a lot done and doing pretty well with weight watchers. On the other hand I feel despair creeping up on me concerning how much there is still to be done and the multiple situations I can not positively affect for others. There are so many people I wish I could help but honestly there is not much I can do in most of these situations.
Money wise, we're about to hit a number of large outlays for house refinancing, apt rent, moving, etc. I have some money saved, but it's still a bit terrifying. We're also going to have to stop supporting financially the people that are living with us. Letting them live with us rent free is apparently not enough wiggle room for them to get their finances in order. J has been giving them his salary for the last 6 weeks to make ends meet, but at this point we need this money. He's also driving the wife to the job he got her pretty much every day, costing him free time and us a significant amount of gas money. I'm not sure he can say no to be honest though- this is his best friend in the world. Still it needs to be done. It's getting to the point that I am looking forward to moving just so we can be away from their constant needs.
I am totally avoiding even thinking about the fact that I will be leaving all of my chosen family top make this move. I've known for a while now that Atlanta is not my place, and have been staying for the people I love so much. But it's time.
mOER