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[mermaid_musings]

although i've rarely been physically alone this easter vacation, i feel like i have....my mind is so far gone...i've been going back into myself....and furthered upon my realizations, i feel so unconnected, so set apart from the rest of the world....i dont really fit in anywhere....i guess that my obsession with Wicked was heightened by my thoughts and where they were leading me....i relate to Elphie sooooo much, and in so many ways for so many reasons...im starting to realize that crying is a perfect antidote...i think i'm going to do my lj so that it's me only...no one else can read my entries....i feel like alhtough i dont belong anywhere or with anyone, i dont really want to...happiness is fleeting, and more complicated than not....it's kinda nice feeling numb and expecting reality...natalie

Don't dream too far
Don't lose sight of who you are...
Don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
I wasn't born for the rose and the pearl
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Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap
It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you can't pull me down...
I'm through accepting limits
'Cuz someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!
I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
And you can't pull me down:
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