Fic: Arthur, This Is Wrong
Title: Arthur, This Is Wrong
Fandom: Merlin
Pairing: Merlin/Arthur.
Word Count: 45,345
Rating: NC17
Warnings: Attempted suicide, non-con, underage.
Summary: When 8 year old Merlin is given as a sex slave to an unwilling 13 year old Prince Arthur, Merlin thinks it's not so bad, since Arthur is kind and only uses him when he absolutely has to. However, when Arthur gets a little older, something changes in him, and the Prince can no longer hold himself back from using Merlin as often as possible.
Through it all, a confused, terrified, and emotionally stunted Merlin struggles to come to terms with his (very extreme) internalized homophobia when he discovers that he is continuously aroused by what Arthur, who is also his best friend, forces upon him. Loving Arthur too much to hate him, Merlin focuses the hate and rage on to himself, at the same time also denying to himself that he has any romantic feelings for Arthur at all.
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