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[merlin_muscrat]

It seems like so many people are worried, stressed or upset about something lately. I know I sure don't feel great. And to be truthful I don't really know why...I mean there is Saturday night...if you know you know if you don't you don't. But it was expected it wasn't like i wasn't somewhat ready for it. And in some ways I don't care...at least I shouldn't...but I guess to truely say I don't care would be a lie and the point of a journal isn't to lie to make yourslef feel better it's to get the truth out (even if it hurts). I realize I also hate not understanding things...I don't know why I liked him so much and I have no idea what I truely want right now. If I had three options and I could just stay single and keep partying and having fun, have things go back, or begin a relationship with someone I liked I don't know which one I would choose. An I don't like that...At least when you know what you want you can fight to get it but the way I feel right now kind of makes me feel like I am floating in emptiness. Anyway I ususally don't say shit like this on live journal but it came out so whatever.
This weekend I am in Lindsay for 5 days which has not occured since last April. It will feel weird. I was kind of pissed about being away from Toronto that long but I think I am happy I will be home for a while. Most people are coming home so we are hopefully having a big TK renion! Should be real fun! It would be great to see everyone. Leanne will be home too which is good.
Anyhoo I have to go do some dishes...nothing to lift your spirits like hard stuck on food.
ByeBye Merlin.