May 24, 2003 23:26
I'm now in like with a girl named Ann. Ann's an interesting story. I've been attracted to her since the beginning of the year, and it took this long for anything to happen. See, what happened was, I kept trying and nothing ever happened. So, I gave up near the end of the first semester (that was when I had that three-chick dating thing going on anyway). Then, next semester: I've decided I'm tired of dating, I want a girlfriend. So... My interest in Ann kicks back up. Again I try, to no avail. Once again, I surrender my interests to That Which Will Be. At this point in time, I begin to become better friends with her. We start hanging out more, doing the friend thing. I've moved on (or so I think). So, being a friend, I confide in her. I tell her of my interests in another girl in her building. She says she can't help, she doesn't really know the girl all that well. I ask her to simply provide moral support, to tell me that girls like me. She replies, [not exactly but something along the lines of this] "Larry, you're so great, who wouldn't want to date you?" It is then that I realize that perhaps Ann is not the ideal girl to be doing this for me. I tell her this. When she asks why, I respond by making her aware of my year-long interest. "In my defense," she says, "You never really tried that hard." I am not really sure how to handle this, but I go along, poking, prodding, doing my best to acquire any information I can. "You don't have to get defensive. It's ok if you're not attracted to me," I say, goading her. "It's not that," she says. "Remember when I asked you to hang out with me a couple of weeks ago? I was seeing how much I liked you." I actually didn't recall the instance of which she spoke, but I was assured it did happen. After more verbal volley, [hmm.. I suppose it wasn't really a volley.. but that's still fun to say] I discover she does, in fact, like me. And I'm not talking about everyday, run-of-the-mill friend like. I'm talking like like. The really good kind. So, since then, we've been seeing each other more often, hanging out, and things are progressing quite well. We're not officially "together", but I don't think it'll be too long. Fun, fun stuff.
See, it's weird when you get to college. In high school, people don't really date. A person decides they like another, you walk up to them and say, "will you go out with me?" There may be a "talking" period beforehand, but it still doesn't compare to college. In college, people got stuff to do. And if you don't know if you're compatible with a person, you don't just jump into something like that. You go on a date, if you have fun, another, then you start just normal hangin' out type stuff, then more dates, then more casual settings, until both of you aren't seeing other people but there's still no "us". There's a specific point where you gotta clarify. You gotta say, [to each other] "We're together. There's no one else." And you both have to agree on this. I know, it's pretty wacked up, and to be honest, I'm not used to the new system (remember, I've only been out of high school for a year). But, I'm trying. We'll see how it all turns out.