So why not try and be happy?
this morning i dropped off kris in knoxville for a car auction and then headed back home for some leisure time. on the way back i was thinking to stop at wal-mart and get some things when i got back. and then ::dun dun dun:: that feeling where you need to find a toilet fast came upon me like a bukkake bachelor party. noticing that i was approaching lebanon, i thought, "i'll just stop at the wal-mart there and use the potty and shop at the same time(note to reader: in case you didn't know, i'm a fucking genius time manager)." i happen to know there is a wally world there because it is right behind the hollywood video that jacki works at.
jump to the past:
fuck that...if you wanna know about jacki, search through my journals and find her. i'm not gonna waste my time telling that story to a newbie.
jump back to the present:
so i think, "ABSOLUTELY, POSI-FUCKING-TIVELY DO NOT GO IN THERE!!!!!!" because i know that i'm fragile and i don't want to stir up the whole jacki situation again. and then, as i was leaving the wal-mart parking lot i strolled through the adjacent hollywood video parking lot.
and then god said, "logan, if you're going to be fragile, be fragile. if you're going to be free, be free. if you're going to learn to quit being so dramatic and just let life happens as it does, learn to quit being so dramatic and just let life happen as it does. why not try to be happy?"
and then i said, "thanks g(see i call him "g" for short), i knew i could count on you.:
and then god said, "i'm just repeating what you said to yourself before anyway. it's not my fault you have to personify your own good advice to yourself onto another entity. why not try to just listen to yourself every once and awhile and quit thinking that i'm some answer guide to life."
and then i said, "you're right."
and then __ said, "you ARE right."
and then i stepped through the doors and smiled at and received smiles from my muse of old. it was five minutes that saved a part of me from dying as i would of driven off empty-handed. thank __ for just try to be happy, even if it is just for five minutes.
jump to the past:
fuck that...if you wanna know about jacki, search through my journals and find her. i'm not gonna waste my time telling that story to a newbie.
jump back to the present:
so i think, "ABSOLUTELY, POSI-FUCKING-TIVELY DO NOT GO IN THERE!!!!!!" because i know that i'm fragile and i don't want to stir up the whole jacki situation again. and then, as i was leaving the wal-mart parking lot i strolled through the adjacent hollywood video parking lot.
and then god said, "logan, if you're going to be fragile, be fragile. if you're going to be free, be free. if you're going to learn to quit being so dramatic and just let life happens as it does, learn to quit being so dramatic and just let life happen as it does. why not try to be happy?"
and then i said, "thanks g(see i call him "g" for short), i knew i could count on you.:
and then god said, "i'm just repeating what you said to yourself before anyway. it's not my fault you have to personify your own good advice to yourself onto another entity. why not try to just listen to yourself every once and awhile and quit thinking that i'm some answer guide to life."
and then i said, "you're right."
and then __ said, "you ARE right."
and then i stepped through the doors and smiled at and received smiles from my muse of old. it was five minutes that saved a part of me from dying as i would of driven off empty-handed. thank __ for just try to be happy, even if it is just for five minutes.