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I can't get to sleep too fast these days. I took a couple of Tylonel PMs an hour ago. Don't those take effect usually withing 30 minutes or am I putting too much trust in over the counter drugs? I need to take more risks. I need to quit pussy-footing around and get my ass in gear. I have a friend that works at this great design firm that has been waiting to see my portfolio book all summer and I've just been completely lazy with it. He says that there is going to be a position opening up real soon. It's done but now I keep stalling. I keep looking for things that could be wrong with it. I keep putting off having lunch with this guy because I'm scared that he will say it looks like shit. But above all I'm scared that he will actually think it's great and that his boss will think it's great. I guess I'm terrified of having a "real" job where I have tons of responsibility. Every other job I've had didn't require too much of me. But now it's time to do..something. I am in a rut and I don't want to grow up. Ha..that rhymes and you know it rhymes...I'm a dorkus.