Clingy
I wonder if I'm being clingy. I hate clinginess, and yet it has always been a temptation, a natural instinct at the back of my mind. I used to give into it all the time thinking "this is the way to get people to love me". I was wrong, they didn't love me, they hated me. Worse than that, they didn't respect me. So now I struggle with all of my might not to be clingy with the result that, at times, I come off as cold or as a tease, or as not interested. People assume that I'm just playing them. But I'm not, that's just the way to keep someone interested. If you really show your affection, people assume that you want them more than they want you, and that's when they begin to feel disgusted. I'm not just talking about sexual or romantic relationships, but friendship too. I can't show that I really care about people, or they'll stop caring about me. I come off as cold. I don't wanna be cold. I just don't wanna be alone. This post is so clingy, people are gonna think that i'm practically cleaving onto them. I wonder if I'm being clingy.