Tokio Hotel in 2016
Somehow I always end up back to their arms. Not literally, though. But even though I don't check them up that often I still do maybe once in six months. I just remain curious about how they are doing, are they well, what are they doing and especially - how do they look like. And even though at first it was a shock for me to have a blonde Bill with beard, now I kinda like it.
It is strange though, Bill having shorter hair than Tom. But Tom has always had long hair, so... To me, they are still beautiful. They are gorgeous no matter what. No matter what I will always love them, that's for sure. And it has always been a bit hard for me to accept all of Bill's new styles, but eventually I've grown to like them every time.
They are beautiful because it's them. It's their faces, and they have the most beautiful faces I've ever seen. No hairstyle or beard can change that.
Watching their interviews I realize that I was wrong few years ago. At that time I thought they were lost when they had been on a hiatus for years already and all they did was party in LA. Now I can see that they needed it. They needed to have a pause. Their lives in Germany were crazier than I ever realized. And now I can hear how rationally they are talking about their lives and how intelligent they still are and I can see that they remain as those two sweet boys I've always loved.
Between all the things that have massively changed there are some that haven't. Bill and Tom are still the closest twins on the planet and they know everything about each others and interviewers and fans are still asking guestions about their twin bond. Their love is the most beautiful love I've seen on Earth. Like in the picture above, you can see they haven't changed. They still take pictures like that. Bill leaning on Tom. In their duo pictures it's always like that, Bill is always behind Tom's back leaning at least one arm on him. It's interesting because Tom is the protector of the two.
Interviewer: "Which one of you is the protector?"
Bill: "Tom."
Tom: "I am."
Interviewer: "What do you need to protect Bill from?"
Tom: "From everything."
Also the fact that Bill talks A LOT hasn't changed. I had forgotten how much Bill talks. Tom can barely have a say at all, but it's fine, that's how things have always been. And the way Bill is. He is just a happy little person. He gets especially happy and excited when he talks about fashion or his dogs.
Bill in a photoshoot: "Pumba, nein."
But wow, a lot has changed. Bill and Tom live in LA. Georg and Gustav in Germany. Georg and Tom has their girlfriends and Gustav is married?! I was surprised to find out that, but I'm really happy for him. Bill remains as single, but Tom revealed that he has had one night stands, apparently quite a lot during the party period. Which also kind of surprised me, but I think that's what is eventually going to happen. He is what, twenty six this year. But he was always kind of my ally in this business. We are both waiting for the big love. I think Bill might have lost a lot of his hopes and maybe he thinks that Tom is his great love (platonic naturally but still) and that maybe that's it. But I think that he'll always have a hint of hope inside him, just like I do.
Especially now that I look back at them I have to wonder why did I fell for them in the first place. I've never liked punk or leather clothing or piercings and tattoos. I hated black clothes for so long. Tokio Hotel was all of that and yet I still love them. Weirdly I have this attraction towards guys like that, though... But still. I guess it was their faces. They were always so beautiful, and I can never resist true beauty. And also the fact that I looked at their hearts and souls instead of what was on the outside. That's how I am.
I am going to keep checking on them few times a year in the future as well. Just as I said as a teenager, they will always be a part of me and my life. Not a very big part. Part that can be forgotten for a long time before being remembered again, but I will never permanently forget them. And I can never stop loving them. I will love them in many different ways during my life and they will mean many different things to me during my life, but they will always be there on the background. I am so proud of them and I am so happy for them all for what they have gained. It seems they have found the peace they were longing for in the middle of the craziness.
I am proud. I am happy. I do love you, till death us do apart.