....A first time post...<.< >.>
Well...it almost three am, it's ramadhan and bloody nearing my ultra important SPM (Sijil Pelajaran Malaysia) Trials. Yes people, the exam of a lifetime....
Right now, I'm still reading fanfic, being blatantly ignorant of the time and reading a tome of a book Physics reference book.
Though, I still don't feel the heat, sort to speak....
Being here is also evidence of that and the guilt of this won't resurface until I have the need to be emo. Dear god, I need more self control. I'm really close to feigning (really have) a nervous breakdown or something.
Gah! Blame it on escapism. Those fic were too delicious to give up. I need my mp3....I need more spirit in this.... I still feel awkward...
Now...For my real rants of bratty-ness
Je suis trop pareusse pour moi-meme. C'est tres mauvais mais...mais....Je suis tres triste parce que I feel freaking guilty about everything and I feel it's better if I just buzz off even if I knew that would make everything more worst but....
Let's just say, I'm in a twist and I don't actually know how to resolve it until i took time off...time off everyone i know. Seriously, I wasn't always like this but now...I just feel like socking myself in the gut and give a good kick too. Man, I need rest ...which is a luxury for me at the moment.
Remember, this is a rant at three am in the morning. Finally, I can breathe a bit. *inhale and exhale*
Guten...Morgen to everyone! And thank you for reading!
Right now, I'm still reading fanfic, being blatantly ignorant of the time and reading a tome of a book Physics reference book.
Though, I still don't feel the heat, sort to speak....
Being here is also evidence of that and the guilt of this won't resurface until I have the need to be emo. Dear god, I need more self control. I'm really close to feigning (really have) a nervous breakdown or something.
Gah! Blame it on escapism. Those fic were too delicious to give up. I need my mp3....I need more spirit in this.... I still feel awkward...
Now...For my real rants of bratty-ness
Je suis trop pareusse pour moi-meme. C'est tres mauvais mais...mais....Je suis tres triste parce que I feel freaking guilty about everything and I feel it's better if I just buzz off even if I knew that would make everything more worst but....
Let's just say, I'm in a twist and I don't actually know how to resolve it until i took time off...time off everyone i know. Seriously, I wasn't always like this but now...I just feel like socking myself in the gut and give a good kick too. Man, I need rest ...which is a luxury for me at the moment.
Remember, this is a rant at three am in the morning. Finally, I can breathe a bit. *inhale and exhale*
Guten...Morgen to everyone! And thank you for reading!