Misery loves company . . .
. . . except when that company is two small cats who really way a hundred tonnes each and insist on sleeping ON YOUR HEAD!
Ahem. I have a head cold. Which is no biggie, right? A few days of feeling miserable and alternately staying at home in bed being bored out of my tree and going to work to share my germs and almost falling on my nose at reception, right? (Seriously, yesterday I was at reception and was SO SO SO SICK I WANTED TO DIE. Today I didn't even try to go to work cos I woke up and couldn't talk - lost my voice! Can't do reception if you can't talk, right?)
Anyway, for me there doesn't seem to be any such thing as a simple head cold. Cos four days into it I'm begining to worry more than a head cold would warrant. Cos my stomach (which you wouldn't think would be involved in a head cold at all) is in full rebellion. I think this may be because I'm struggling to stay hydrated (remembering, for those who are playing at home, that my stomach and innards have been surgically rearranged and aren't normal), and because the cold and flu medication I'm taking isn't sitting well on the poor wee petal. Nor is the diluted juice/water or juice/lemonade combo I'm drinking to try and keep my fluids up (which was why I almost flaked out at reception yesterday - the juice and water got my tummy).
Actually, my tummy doesn't like ANYTHING at the moment - I have no appetite and anything I try to eat makes me feel sick.
Which could be good - I might lose weight!
But then, I have further problems - cos I decided to take a decongestant to unstuff my nose, and a cough medicine to make my chest comfortable - and what I'm taking does help those problems. But again, it makes my tummy yucky, and I'm also worried cos now I read that the decongestant shouldn't be taken by someone who has high blood pressure or who takes antidepressants or who has diabetes (which I still technically do).
So I mean, what the hell AM I SUPPOSED TO TAKE when I have a cold!! If the medication for cold and flu interacts with my other medications and medical problems, is there anything that's safe for me to take???? And if it all upsets my tummy anyway . . . and which symptom is being caused by the original head cold and which is being caused by what I'm taking to help with the cold and . . . really, it's doing my head in and worrying the heck out of me . . . and the increased anxiety is possibly being caused by either me being dehydrated or by the cold or by interaction between various medications and WHO THE HELL KNOWS!!
It's a simple frickin' head cold. I should be able to take a simple frickin' remedy for it and that's that.
But NOOO!
Anyway, at the moment I'm thinking I just won't take anything, except maybe paracetamol if I'm in pain or have a fever. I'll use some smelly Vicks Vaporub to try and keep my nose clear, and I'll try and keep drinking even though it makes me feel sick, and I'll try and stay warm and hopefully the headcold won't go down into my chest like these things usually do. But if I can't calm myself down I may go to the doctor or something. I have to go to work tomorrow - I have no sick leave left and I'm using annual leave and I'm almost out of that. I don't have any money to let me take time off without pay . . heck, not even sure I can afford the doctor really . .
and you know what, I need to stop thinking about all of this cos I'm already anxious and this aint helping.
I'm also really really PISSED off about something that happened at work that was totally UNFAIR but I'm might whine about that at some other point.
It's been snowing on and off here, but hasn't settled so far. Wish it would - cos then I'd have a day off work that was paid as 'other leave' instead of using my annual leave.
Really, at the moment, life is quite overwhelming for me and I feel like I'm clinging on to the edge of things and drowning in the details. Someone needs to come and rescue me from the details!!
Ahem. I have a head cold. Which is no biggie, right? A few days of feeling miserable and alternately staying at home in bed being bored out of my tree and going to work to share my germs and almost falling on my nose at reception, right? (Seriously, yesterday I was at reception and was SO SO SO SICK I WANTED TO DIE. Today I didn't even try to go to work cos I woke up and couldn't talk - lost my voice! Can't do reception if you can't talk, right?)
Anyway, for me there doesn't seem to be any such thing as a simple head cold. Cos four days into it I'm begining to worry more than a head cold would warrant. Cos my stomach (which you wouldn't think would be involved in a head cold at all) is in full rebellion. I think this may be because I'm struggling to stay hydrated (remembering, for those who are playing at home, that my stomach and innards have been surgically rearranged and aren't normal), and because the cold and flu medication I'm taking isn't sitting well on the poor wee petal. Nor is the diluted juice/water or juice/lemonade combo I'm drinking to try and keep my fluids up (which was why I almost flaked out at reception yesterday - the juice and water got my tummy).
Actually, my tummy doesn't like ANYTHING at the moment - I have no appetite and anything I try to eat makes me feel sick.
Which could be good - I might lose weight!
But then, I have further problems - cos I decided to take a decongestant to unstuff my nose, and a cough medicine to make my chest comfortable - and what I'm taking does help those problems. But again, it makes my tummy yucky, and I'm also worried cos now I read that the decongestant shouldn't be taken by someone who has high blood pressure or who takes antidepressants or who has diabetes (which I still technically do).
So I mean, what the hell AM I SUPPOSED TO TAKE when I have a cold!! If the medication for cold and flu interacts with my other medications and medical problems, is there anything that's safe for me to take???? And if it all upsets my tummy anyway . . . and which symptom is being caused by the original head cold and which is being caused by what I'm taking to help with the cold and . . . really, it's doing my head in and worrying the heck out of me . . . and the increased anxiety is possibly being caused by either me being dehydrated or by the cold or by interaction between various medications and WHO THE HELL KNOWS!!
It's a simple frickin' head cold. I should be able to take a simple frickin' remedy for it and that's that.
But NOOO!
Anyway, at the moment I'm thinking I just won't take anything, except maybe paracetamol if I'm in pain or have a fever. I'll use some smelly Vicks Vaporub to try and keep my nose clear, and I'll try and keep drinking even though it makes me feel sick, and I'll try and stay warm and hopefully the headcold won't go down into my chest like these things usually do. But if I can't calm myself down I may go to the doctor or something. I have to go to work tomorrow - I have no sick leave left and I'm using annual leave and I'm almost out of that. I don't have any money to let me take time off without pay . . heck, not even sure I can afford the doctor really . .
and you know what, I need to stop thinking about all of this cos I'm already anxious and this aint helping.
I'm also really really PISSED off about something that happened at work that was totally UNFAIR but I'm might whine about that at some other point.
It's been snowing on and off here, but hasn't settled so far. Wish it would - cos then I'd have a day off work that was paid as 'other leave' instead of using my annual leave.
Really, at the moment, life is quite overwhelming for me and I feel like I'm clinging on to the edge of things and drowning in the details. Someone needs to come and rescue me from the details!!