Growing Up
I'm finally unable to deny how selfish I am. It is uncomfortable seeing how agitated I get when things don't go my way or simply not wanting to do something. I see a selfless person in there, but that's only on my time.
This comes from tonight. I was asked to help out for a couple hours (5-8) and upon getting home I am then asked to also put the lady to bed... meaning I will be going to bed between 11:30 and midnight tonight. On top of that i am already scheduled to wake up tonight to assist her. If I am lucky, she will sleep well like last night and wake up around 4am.
Now I look at this and this is something I'm use to doing every other weekend. I think I'm bugged by it because I wasn't expecting to be up late. I also feel a tad jipped seeing that when I got home the other care taker (who was home) hadn't assist her to using the restroom. However why am I bugged by such a simple job? I should feel privilege to have a simple job. But here it is, me rathering to be off doing something else than helping out this woman.
I feel bad that I am like this, but I also look at it as me needing to grow. I will have to figure out how to enjoy the simplicity of this job. I do enjoy moments of it, but I wish I could full heartedly find it exciting and rewarding.
This comes from tonight. I was asked to help out for a couple hours (5-8) and upon getting home I am then asked to also put the lady to bed... meaning I will be going to bed between 11:30 and midnight tonight. On top of that i am already scheduled to wake up tonight to assist her. If I am lucky, she will sleep well like last night and wake up around 4am.
Now I look at this and this is something I'm use to doing every other weekend. I think I'm bugged by it because I wasn't expecting to be up late. I also feel a tad jipped seeing that when I got home the other care taker (who was home) hadn't assist her to using the restroom. However why am I bugged by such a simple job? I should feel privilege to have a simple job. But here it is, me rathering to be off doing something else than helping out this woman.
I feel bad that I am like this, but I also look at it as me needing to grow. I will have to figure out how to enjoy the simplicity of this job. I do enjoy moments of it, but I wish I could full heartedly find it exciting and rewarding.