A midnight ponder....
So, i was in Mexico last week building a rescue mission with my church. The weather was awesome and the trip was one that will go down in the vault of memories. I think i lost 10 pounds just by laughing (you all know that's my favorite pastime). We had a little too much down time, due to the fact that some of our plans had changed when we got there. I really felt God telling me "Be still and know I am God". I embraced this alone time with an open heart and mind. I feel like i am in a place of complacency and have been here for a long time. It's as if i have trouble looking forward so i walk through the same motions everyday. I also feel like although i had made fresno beach my home, i never allowed myself to really reach out to people. I expected them to come to me. I also think that I wanted to hold on to my so cal friends so tight because i didnt want them to fizzle. The friends that I have made (esp in la crescenta) have been relationships that i treasure so much. I want you all to know this. I really latched on to a few people in Mexico. It's so great to have people that i can pour my heart out to and vice versa. I also met a boy. I'm not saying that anything other than an amazing friendship is going to happen, but he really makes me smile. His nature makes me so comfortable. I love that i can be real...be myself around him. His smile is addicting. All in all, i enjoy his company. So much so, that i can even get over the fact that he is short...woah!! Did i just say that? SO yeah, we'll see what happens there. This was one of the first Mexico trips that i didnt want to go home. I was sad when i woke up and my new found friends weren't there. I am feeling more encouraged these days. I am feeling like i now can look forward, not backwards. 10 MORE DAYS TIL I GO TO SO CAL!