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ugh....talking to my mom and its eyeopening. how alone i am going to be for the next...who knows how long! it sucks because i know i dont have any friends. and i have spent almost my whole life like that...and spent my life trying to be a part of the group...and its something that i have been searching for since forever...i have always felt like that. that i never really had the friends i wish i had. i know im not a loner...but i have always been one...searching for that friendship that i know i can have... *frown* choosing to stay over here in japan has only ONE good thing that comes with staying...tommy. he is the best thing since i have been over here, that happened to me. he has stuck through so much with me. and it means the world. he started my friend and has now become my best friend and boyfriend. i cant wait to see where our relationship grows from this point on. i love that he loves me..and who i am!!