post production HELL
So this internship, it's really great. I'm not being sarcastic. It's a great internship, and is definitely something to put on my resume. Usually it's bearable but around August they had me doing this thing with story notes, I won't get into it really, but basically they fired this guy without him finishing some things, so I had to finish them. Meaning deciphering 50+ pages of his TERRIBLE handwriting and putting it into Excel. Since I hadn't done it for over a month, I thought I was done with it.... but NO, today, I finished what I was working on and they had me fucking get back to this shit. I can't bring myself to work diligently on it, so hence, here I am listening to rusted root and posting on livejournal.
It doesn't look like Queer Eye will be continuting for much longer. A part of me is disappointed because it was my slim chance for a job after graduation. But it is hard to keep up during school and everything. I should just smile, be grateful for this experience and tell myself that it's something to put on my resume, and a step in the direction of paying my dues. But this is really making me rethink the career I had planned out for myself. Okay not a career, but a career plan I suppose. I'm not sure if this is what I want. I mean, granted I won't be doing intern shit work but I'm not sure if I'm the kind of person that can handle 12 hour days. I can do it for a time but I know that it would grate down on me until there was nothing left. I don't know how everyone around here does it. I really commend them. But they do get random week-long breaks throughout the year. There have already been 2 or 3 week breaks since I started in May so that's probably the precise reason they have those long breaks. I just don't know if I could do it.
But then I think, if I don't do this, what the fuck else am I gonna do? Buy a studio space, a kiln and some clay and do that for the rest of my life? Because that is the only thing I can think of that I actually want to do. That makes me happy. I do get frustrated at times, but in the end I still enjoy it. I guess you could say I am in love with ceramics in a way, and I always have been. Whenever I come back to it like I have now and in the past, I am just reminded of how much I love it, and how much I can't have it. Can I realistically go back to school (yeah right after I graduate) and learn more about ceramics and then what, become a teacher? I mean that would be a way to be around it all the time. But I feel like I would have to get another bachelor's in fine arts, then go for an MFA in order to build a portfolio good enough to be able to go to grad school.
Any time I have free during the week, guess where I am.... I'm in the ceramics room either working on things that are due or working on extra things that I want to make. Usually Monday, and Tuesday nights are spent in the ceramics room until 10pm and sometimes Sunday nights also. Sad huh? I should just forget about it and focus on a career that will make me money.... and if I make enough money then I can just do that on the side as a hobby. Let me just say that all you art majors out there, I am in awe of your talent and will to do what you want because it is a risky field to go into and you guys are all out there doing it.
It doesn't look like Queer Eye will be continuting for much longer. A part of me is disappointed because it was my slim chance for a job after graduation. But it is hard to keep up during school and everything. I should just smile, be grateful for this experience and tell myself that it's something to put on my resume, and a step in the direction of paying my dues. But this is really making me rethink the career I had planned out for myself. Okay not a career, but a career plan I suppose. I'm not sure if this is what I want. I mean, granted I won't be doing intern shit work but I'm not sure if I'm the kind of person that can handle 12 hour days. I can do it for a time but I know that it would grate down on me until there was nothing left. I don't know how everyone around here does it. I really commend them. But they do get random week-long breaks throughout the year. There have already been 2 or 3 week breaks since I started in May so that's probably the precise reason they have those long breaks. I just don't know if I could do it.
But then I think, if I don't do this, what the fuck else am I gonna do? Buy a studio space, a kiln and some clay and do that for the rest of my life? Because that is the only thing I can think of that I actually want to do. That makes me happy. I do get frustrated at times, but in the end I still enjoy it. I guess you could say I am in love with ceramics in a way, and I always have been. Whenever I come back to it like I have now and in the past, I am just reminded of how much I love it, and how much I can't have it. Can I realistically go back to school (yeah right after I graduate) and learn more about ceramics and then what, become a teacher? I mean that would be a way to be around it all the time. But I feel like I would have to get another bachelor's in fine arts, then go for an MFA in order to build a portfolio good enough to be able to go to grad school.
Any time I have free during the week, guess where I am.... I'm in the ceramics room either working on things that are due or working on extra things that I want to make. Usually Monday, and Tuesday nights are spent in the ceramics room until 10pm and sometimes Sunday nights also. Sad huh? I should just forget about it and focus on a career that will make me money.... and if I make enough money then I can just do that on the side as a hobby. Let me just say that all you art majors out there, I am in awe of your talent and will to do what you want because it is a risky field to go into and you guys are all out there doing it.