Beginnings
So it started out as a fantastic(ish) weekend. Everything seems to be going good. And these beginning sentences make it sound like I'm going to say "and then it got bad." But I am not going to.
I thought that it was getting easier - this transition thing I've been forced into, but then I got cranky tonight. And I never really talked about it. As much as I hate getting upset, I would have liked to talk about it. A hug from anyone would have been nice too. I should really learn to ask for those sort of things.
I look around and keep seeing happiness. When will it be my turn? I've been sitting by watching beginnings of whatever from my friends or acquaintances for two and a half years. I mean, I don't just want anyone. If I didn't have high standards I wouldn't be waiting anymore. But I do. Are they too high? I can commit. I don't have those issues? no? Ah! My mind is going at 1000mph right now.
AAAAAAAnyway. It really was a good weekend. There was this Mexican party thing on Friday night. And Jon and Heather gave me a sarong and bracelet that they got me in Hawaii. I absolutely LOVE them (both the people and the gifts. ha :P) Saturday I played in a recital and then watched some of Copying Beethoven. And today I played at Brandon's church - Jon came with. That was fun. Even when he started cracking up during a hymn because he could actually hear me sing.
I have a feeling that I am going to be getting a lecture tomorrow. Just a guess, though. haha.
I thought that it was getting easier - this transition thing I've been forced into, but then I got cranky tonight. And I never really talked about it. As much as I hate getting upset, I would have liked to talk about it. A hug from anyone would have been nice too. I should really learn to ask for those sort of things.
I look around and keep seeing happiness. When will it be my turn? I've been sitting by watching beginnings of whatever from my friends or acquaintances for two and a half years. I mean, I don't just want anyone. If I didn't have high standards I wouldn't be waiting anymore. But I do. Are they too high? I can commit. I don't have those issues? no? Ah! My mind is going at 1000mph right now.
AAAAAAAnyway. It really was a good weekend. There was this Mexican party thing on Friday night. And Jon and Heather gave me a sarong and bracelet that they got me in Hawaii. I absolutely LOVE them (both the people and the gifts. ha :P) Saturday I played in a recital and then watched some of Copying Beethoven. And today I played at Brandon's church - Jon came with. That was fun. Even when he started cracking up during a hymn because he could actually hear me sing.
I have a feeling that I am going to be getting a lecture tomorrow. Just a guess, though. haha.