Jul 30, 2014 23:12
So I decided to change my major to psychology, and now's the best time because I haven't started yet. I was going to go with sociology, and I love sociology don't get me wrong. But when I was talking to my professor at my last college about it, he seemed like he really really wanted me to go into soc and I'm not real sure why? It just didn't seem like he was pushing it "for the general good of the sociology discipline as a whole," because I felt like he was pushing it for his own interests...as in, "Yeah, I got someone to pursue a career in soc because I'm that good of a teacher, IN YOUR FACE DOUBTING PEOPLE!" And I don't mind feeling prideful as a professor in feeling like your work has made a difference for your students, but it didn't feel like it was for my interests. It's confusing.
The reason I am pretty annoyed with him is for the most part because he offered to write letters of recommendation on my behalf to the colleges I was applying, and then he never did. He said he sent them too. Then he said to email him over the summer for help on college transfer stuff, and he can't even reply to any emails.
When I did mention I was interested in psychology, he steered me away from it. "YOU GOTTA DO SOC! YOU CAN DO PSYCH IN GRAD SCHOOL JUST DO SOC!" So I'm like okay...and then I felt...slightly traitorous because I considered majoring in other things (I also had a strong interest in physics) but in my applications I chose sociology, it's dumb but I did feel like I would be letting him down if I didn't...
But then he can't even help me out like he offered, so it's stupid of me to even feel like I owe him anything. It's stupid to feel that in the first place (even if he did pull through) because in the end, it is my life, my money, my decisions, and my eventual career at stake and there's no reason I should feel like I owe it to anyone what they want me to do.
Therefore I chose psychology because it's such an insanely rational choice for me for a number of reasons. It works extremely well with my personal strengths.
1) I've been fascinated with psychology for as long as I can remember, and as a teen I sometimes for fun would research all sorts of crap about it. It seems like I can randomly state all kinds of facts about it. This was for fun, you guys.
2) I had a few fuck-around years at community college because my parents were paying and I had no particular direction, so I took as many psych courses as I could. BECAUSE I COULD. Thanks to my fuck-around years, I now have a TON of transfer credits going towards a BA that I'm actually almost done...before I've started.
3) My intuition about people's inner world is scary good at times. Not to boast, but I'm very observant and curious when watching people's interactions with each other. I feel like I can see the hidden communication...if that makes sense? Body language, tones of voice, feelings towards each other, tensions...a lot of that crap just comes so naturally to me. It is definitely a good skill to harvest.
4) I just want to goddamn help people who feel like crap to feel less like crap. Lots of people over the years have made me feel less like crap when I always felt like crap. I want to return the favor. Obviously I can't to the same people who helped me but, well, I dunno. Karma or something.
There are other reasons. I can detach professionally, I can keep from getting over-involved while still being helpful. Also I have a morbid fascination and my threshold for squick is extremely high. So tell me all your horrible deep dirty secrets.
I'm starting to feel like I'm at a job interview, but self-positivity is always good, right? Woo. Really though, I feel good about this direction I'm taking now, much better than I did about soc. I actually want to minor in soc or criminal justice. Thoughts? (If any).
optimism,
psychology,
introspection,
self-positivity,
college