Ugh
Well maybe today my old self came back. I just felt bullshit and before analyzing it I went off. I really however feel like I don't need people. I am tired of "friends" and "besties." I'd rather just be alone with my family. I have been friends with so many people for so long and invested so much into them to get me... 1/2 ass shit.
My college friends I have been friends with for almost a decade we've been through a lot lately and I am not going to type it all but it's always something lately... mainly however it's he said she said too much is going around and it's becoming fake. I have did it too but I just rather not be around them anymore. I don't care if I lose 6 friends and all those years of friendships. I don't because at the end of the day I know I am removing myself from the situation and not fueling the fire. I know I am the nucleus but oh well the cell has to survive somehow.
It's so funny to me how people can talk and laugh about someone one day and then rush over to be with them the next. I think what really set me off is I got up out of bed expecting people to come over that never did and then when I call them out about it they want to come over my apt door and throw shit to let them in. No I am not I am done. To me it was very inconsiderate and then you tell me you're going over someone's house who last week you thought they were snobby.
I am going to 100% focus on getting into grad school, fuck everything and everyone else.
"I think the main problem with me is that I expect too much out of people."
The end.
My college friends I have been friends with for almost a decade we've been through a lot lately and I am not going to type it all but it's always something lately... mainly however it's he said she said too much is going around and it's becoming fake. I have did it too but I just rather not be around them anymore. I don't care if I lose 6 friends and all those years of friendships. I don't because at the end of the day I know I am removing myself from the situation and not fueling the fire. I know I am the nucleus but oh well the cell has to survive somehow.
It's so funny to me how people can talk and laugh about someone one day and then rush over to be with them the next. I think what really set me off is I got up out of bed expecting people to come over that never did and then when I call them out about it they want to come over my apt door and throw shit to let them in. No I am not I am done. To me it was very inconsiderate and then you tell me you're going over someone's house who last week you thought they were snobby.
I am going to 100% focus on getting into grad school, fuck everything and everyone else.
"I think the main problem with me is that I expect too much out of people."
The end.