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so i got over my obsessive and defeatist mode long enough to plug my phone in the right way and make some calls.
none of themwere easy calls to make. had nothing to do with the people iwas calling or what we talked about for the most part, but so many of the things that i am needing to say to the people i feel safe with and trust are so hard for me to say. my emotions are out of control and i feel like every time something comes out of my mouth does nothingbut make me even more of a charity case than i already feel like.
i have to go to work now...and i don't want to keep talking like this anymore...
none of themwere easy calls to make. had nothing to do with the people iwas calling or what we talked about for the most part, but so many of the things that i am needing to say to the people i feel safe with and trust are so hard for me to say. my emotions are out of control and i feel like every time something comes out of my mouth does nothingbut make me even more of a charity case than i already feel like.
i have to go to work now...and i don't want to keep talking like this anymore...