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By the time most of you read this, I will be on my way, or even in Austin. Today, technically, is moving day. People keep asking me if I'm excited...and I just want to say, "Would you be excited to leave the girl you love, the people you love, the town you love, and the place you're most comfortable?" To which I must respond, "No, I didn't think so."
I guess though, I'm sort of ready. I sat at dinner tonight with my family for the last time, but not really. I felt like there would be more dinners and times together, just in a different way. I guess, that I finally do realize that this new chapter of my life, is just picking up where the old one stopped, not somewhere in between.
I kept thinking to myself, "I should be sad and nostalgic." I mean, I AM going to miss everyone and everything, but I then thought, "Well, I will be back.". I'm not leaving forever and I'm coming back whenever I want or can. It's just a temporary dislocation of my physical being to a place where I can better myself. For that I'm glad. I want to be a better person, more grown up, better educated. For this opportunity, I have worked hard and I don't want to throw it away, I can't.
I'm glad I'm not like Dante from Clerks....always waiting to start his life instead of doing it. I'm glad to be going after my dreams and hopes, but I'm really...really sad to have to give up having you guys around me all the time, to do it. I don't feel it's fair, but things have to be done.
To all of you, I love you guys, I'm really going to miss home, but I'll still be here...and there...and home too.
Peace, Love, Caffiene,
-Rob
I guess though, I'm sort of ready. I sat at dinner tonight with my family for the last time, but not really. I felt like there would be more dinners and times together, just in a different way. I guess, that I finally do realize that this new chapter of my life, is just picking up where the old one stopped, not somewhere in between.
I kept thinking to myself, "I should be sad and nostalgic." I mean, I AM going to miss everyone and everything, but I then thought, "Well, I will be back.". I'm not leaving forever and I'm coming back whenever I want or can. It's just a temporary dislocation of my physical being to a place where I can better myself. For that I'm glad. I want to be a better person, more grown up, better educated. For this opportunity, I have worked hard and I don't want to throw it away, I can't.
I'm glad I'm not like Dante from Clerks....always waiting to start his life instead of doing it. I'm glad to be going after my dreams and hopes, but I'm really...really sad to have to give up having you guys around me all the time, to do it. I don't feel it's fair, but things have to be done.
To all of you, I love you guys, I'm really going to miss home, but I'll still be here...and there...and home too.
Peace, Love, Caffiene,
-Rob