Its been how long?
So I decided to do a post even though I'm pretty sure no one reads their lj's anymore. I guess it will be a journal then.
Its my last night of training, my last night in Cleveland. I'm really excited. I just want to go home, to be back in Buffalo, to spend time with Rick and Becky and all the other people that I feel like I haven't seen in months.
I want to go out, to have fun, to drink! I'm looking forward to having breakfast cooked for me. To cuddling and falling asleep with that special someone. To waking up to no open-mouthed kisses. I can't wait to go to the sculpture park with everyone, even though it seems to be turning into a couples outing. Odd. I don't think Becky and I have dated someone at the sametime ever. We were laughing about that today.
I read back through all my college journal entries during training today. I'm really glad that I have this because I forgot about a lot of the stuff I had written about. My personal favorite would be the entry about Nora taking a face-first dive off her bed that was 5ft off the ground. It was bittersweet. I didn't realize how much fun I did have at college. I also didn't realize how insecure BC had made me feel. I'm pretty sure I'm over it now. I feel confident and sexy again and it feels great. I think most of it comes from becoming happy with who you are.
I really needed that year off from dating. I honestly think that that year is what healed me internally. I no longer feel dependent on any person for my happiness. I centered myself. I don't think I've felt this way since I started dating. I was rarely single and thats just not healthy. I needed the time to find myself and figure out what I needed in a relationship. And maybe I am lucky enough to have found that now. When I'm hanging out with Rick I feel like I never run out of things to say. Even if there is silence its such a comfortable silence. He's pretty darn cute too.
So I think this is one of the longer entries I've done in years. If you actually read it, congrats, you still check lj for the off chance someone posted. I hope I made your day.
Its my last night of training, my last night in Cleveland. I'm really excited. I just want to go home, to be back in Buffalo, to spend time with Rick and Becky and all the other people that I feel like I haven't seen in months.
I want to go out, to have fun, to drink! I'm looking forward to having breakfast cooked for me. To cuddling and falling asleep with that special someone. To waking up to no open-mouthed kisses. I can't wait to go to the sculpture park with everyone, even though it seems to be turning into a couples outing. Odd. I don't think Becky and I have dated someone at the sametime ever. We were laughing about that today.
I read back through all my college journal entries during training today. I'm really glad that I have this because I forgot about a lot of the stuff I had written about. My personal favorite would be the entry about Nora taking a face-first dive off her bed that was 5ft off the ground. It was bittersweet. I didn't realize how much fun I did have at college. I also didn't realize how insecure BC had made me feel. I'm pretty sure I'm over it now. I feel confident and sexy again and it feels great. I think most of it comes from becoming happy with who you are.
I really needed that year off from dating. I honestly think that that year is what healed me internally. I no longer feel dependent on any person for my happiness. I centered myself. I don't think I've felt this way since I started dating. I was rarely single and thats just not healthy. I needed the time to find myself and figure out what I needed in a relationship. And maybe I am lucky enough to have found that now. When I'm hanging out with Rick I feel like I never run out of things to say. Even if there is silence its such a comfortable silence. He's pretty darn cute too.
So I think this is one of the longer entries I've done in years. If you actually read it, congrats, you still check lj for the off chance someone posted. I hope I made your day.