Thinking
Let me assure you, my life is awesome.
Let me remind you I am not perfect nor are the people around me.
Within the last two weeks certain people who I put all my hope and trust in failed me. What once was a vision we shared is now blurry to them and I'm left walking this road alone. Yet, a God who is perfect still loves on me and I pushed him to the furthest part of my mind.
Spoke with Taylor Hughes who is not only a mentor/ pastor but is like an older brother to me and I swear I could see his eyes begin to water when I told him how empty I was feeling inside. I could feel my throat begin to tighten with every word i added into our conversation.
"I felt so empty, like I was decaying inside and while everything was going great and everyone thought I was happy, I truly wasn't "
that had to be the hardest thing for me to say to him.
and here I will mention it again, COMPASSION. Had he not showed me comassion, I don't think I could be feeling ok. I don't know where I'd be and God would continue to stay put on the backburner.
God gave me two choices a few nights ago.
"What kind of integrity will you have Steph? You either love me or don't."
Well guess what, I love him alot..things are better, way better.
Without him I can't do anything. Hope, welcome back.
Let me remind you I am not perfect nor are the people around me.
Within the last two weeks certain people who I put all my hope and trust in failed me. What once was a vision we shared is now blurry to them and I'm left walking this road alone. Yet, a God who is perfect still loves on me and I pushed him to the furthest part of my mind.
Spoke with Taylor Hughes who is not only a mentor/ pastor but is like an older brother to me and I swear I could see his eyes begin to water when I told him how empty I was feeling inside. I could feel my throat begin to tighten with every word i added into our conversation.
"I felt so empty, like I was decaying inside and while everything was going great and everyone thought I was happy, I truly wasn't "
that had to be the hardest thing for me to say to him.
and here I will mention it again, COMPASSION. Had he not showed me comassion, I don't think I could be feeling ok. I don't know where I'd be and God would continue to stay put on the backburner.
God gave me two choices a few nights ago.
"What kind of integrity will you have Steph? You either love me or don't."
Well guess what, I love him alot..things are better, way better.
Without him I can't do anything. Hope, welcome back.