my last good bye to u

[mercuryeater]

well my life has come to a big change as of today. i had to do something in which i didn't want to do but i had to. it was for the best for me. it was hard in trying to hold back some tears and take control of my feelings while talking to her. but i knew in the end it was going to be a long winter without her. i had to get rid of the pictures,numbers, and email that belong to her so that i can live on and not be reminded of her. she was my comfort zone and no i feel so uncomfortable talking to her and even seeing her. the memories that i had of her of going to six flags when she put her arm round mine and head on my shoulder. till the time we went to beach,waterpark, and movies with her, to even the time i told her that i loved her. they were all dreams that could not have happened in real life. i just hope that she is happy with the her love. and maybe one day i will find someone that i can love just like i loved her but this time this person is going to love me back. this is going to be my last entry for the year. until i feel that i can back as a new and improved person then i will. so good bye to each and everyone of my friends here and hopefully when i ready i shall return.
peace and goodnite