The 'V' Word

[mercury_pheonix]

You probably don’t want to hear about my love life.

But you’re probably even less keen on hearing about my lack of a love life.

Today, I was asked the question: ‘are you single?’ This seems to be a question that is perfectly normal, culturally and socially, to ask - so I answered it truthfully. What else was I to do? To discuss one’s love life is

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[mercury_pheonix]

The annoying thing is that deep down I know all this. I've always had to put up this wall of strength that no one can see through - so they think I'm rude or unapproachable rather than shy. I know this, but sometimes it feels like that knowledge is buried so deep that I can't reach it. And it's moments like that which produce posts like this. It's a horrible spiralling feeling that I can't control...and I was in the house on my own (not that housemate would have made it any easier) and I just wanted someone to talk to. So I talked to the keyboard, like I usually do when I'm feeling alone with something I need to get off my chest.

Just feels like there's a lot of pressure sometimes, and that pressure can sometimes get too much. It's not nice :( I don't like the fact that it feels like people's opinions of me change when they find out, or they judge me on it, or make assumptions about me, or that they think it's funny and tease me, however loving that teasing is intended...I still don't like it and I'm never bold enough to say 'I don't enjoy this'. I think I'm a bit of a pushover sometimes.

I think I have a good life with good friends and I do a lot of things. But sometimes it seems like everyone is pairing up without me - and though I'm still friends with them, they're paired off, they all have this thing that I am not a part of, and I DON'T have that. And that's not nice. Feeling like a goosebury just makes me feel even worse about the whole situation.

Gimme a few days and I'll probably be okay, y'know what I mean? But this was one of those moments where it was spiralling out of control and I couldn't just let it fester and get infected in my head.

[iantosgal]

Better to talk to a keyboard (and by extention us :P) than to try and keep it bottled up!

There is no pressure babe. If people are putting pressure on you then you need to stand up and tell them to shove off. It's got nothing to do with them and the shouldn't be allowed to make you feel like that. It's just making your own opinion of yourself worse because you start thinking other people agree with how you see yourself.

I know how you feel. I was always the one left on my own while everyone paired up. Even now, I feel like that sometimes. I don't get to see my boyfriend very much because of uni but my friends can cop of with some guy if they want. I also feel left out by them sometimes because they've become majorly close and sometimes I feel pushed out. So yeah I know that feeling. Tw's company, three's a crowd etc etc.

Definitly don't let it fester. There's always people on here for you to vent at! :D x