Being a beeee.*
so the ring is in there. and i dont even feel it! i feel the morning-after pill (which i had to take since i didnt continue my pills and switched shit, not because im a turd who is getting banged-out all dangerously....well....), which makes you crampy and bloated and big-tittied and sleepy....but its all good. i have been a fabulous little worked bee for about a day and a half straight now, with only a break for sleeping and a soon-to-be break for the galvanic spa treatment and the second half of THE NEVERENDING STORY. i know its all hipster-ass hipster now to like fantasy movies and shit, but i dont give a fuck. this was my FAVORITE movie as a kid and i havent seen it in seriously like 15-20 years and watching it again is so incredible because now im all tripped out on the sets and the costumes and the plot and the inner-bassass-ness of it all. and i had totally forgotten the real storyline of bastian and his life....man! so this is super geeky of me, but im thinking i might want a tattoo of the golden compass and the orion, the snake emblem on the neverending story book. its super goth-metal looking, which is ehhh, but so fucking rad. i feel like myself again. in fact, im getting all independent again in my thinking, which is soooo refreshing. i need to remember to focus on myself and not be thinking about you-know-who all the time. i always come back to this realization. he is constantly thinking about himself, we dont need two of us thinking about him. ha. also, i know im happier when i focus on my own shit because i can control it all and i cant control another person (not that i would ever want to). but we are going to disneyland (after me asking for this since FOREVER!) on friday and i am sooo fucking excited. i ahvetn been there in YEARS and im so stoked and its gonna be romantic and adorable and so much fun. but i need to go downstairs and smoke some weeds and finish my shiraz and fold up all my newly-re-made, pretty posters for tomorrows presentation and lesson. i have to teach three lessons, write two reflections, and do a presentation tomorrow. ahh....but at least i sewed wolf ears and made a felt headband to wear while i read the story of WHERE THE WILD THINGS ARE. what a chesseball-ass elementary school teacher i truly am. k. peace out self, peace out peeps.*