Whatever happened to friendship?
I find it so sad that I quit my job and suddenly no one from there- save a couple- will talk to me anymore. I've been messaging and calling- I honestly want to see if people are okay, but....no response. I gave my last ditch effort last week, and with no response. And I KNOW they're ignoring me.
I'd honestly just like to know what I did wrong. If I'm not at work, doing things for you- going out of my way to help people- always being friendly... am I just not worth anything? I leave and that's it? Almost five years don't even count. Every fucking person who has ever quit there is still considered a buddy, except for me?! I'd just like to know what the fuck I did wrong! Why I always tried to be kind to everyone and no one ever seemed to accept me. They'd tell me I was a good friend, or their best friend and then they just...forget. It's like getting dumped by 20 people at once. And it's really, really depressing.
And not only that, everyone else seems to have dropped off the face of the planet. Friends don't return messages, family is too busy for me... At this point I'm not even sure I want to reach out for friendship. Friends know how to hurt you more...so why even put yourself out there when it seems like you're always the one getting smashed? When you seem to be the only one putting out the effort...?
I just...I just don't understand people anymore. I don't understand them at all.
I'd honestly just like to know what I did wrong. If I'm not at work, doing things for you- going out of my way to help people- always being friendly... am I just not worth anything? I leave and that's it? Almost five years don't even count. Every fucking person who has ever quit there is still considered a buddy, except for me?! I'd just like to know what the fuck I did wrong! Why I always tried to be kind to everyone and no one ever seemed to accept me. They'd tell me I was a good friend, or their best friend and then they just...forget. It's like getting dumped by 20 people at once. And it's really, really depressing.
And not only that, everyone else seems to have dropped off the face of the planet. Friends don't return messages, family is too busy for me... At this point I'm not even sure I want to reach out for friendship. Friends know how to hurt you more...so why even put yourself out there when it seems like you're always the one getting smashed? When you seem to be the only one putting out the effort...?
I just...I just don't understand people anymore. I don't understand them at all.