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Day 9 -
At breakfast, Quez called out for help. Zack and I both responded, and met Ellone inside of Squall’s mind. Or a piece of her anyways. One that still looks out for him. She told us how to remove the alterations Squall had done and that one of us would have to open up his original memories. I gave the key to Zack, after all, Squall’s oathsworn to him… it seems to have worked, though he wasn’t very happy about us changing him back to normal.
I’ve spent most of the day since simply working on my shielding and securing my memories the way Zack showed me. Sometime today I’m supposed to get my “visitor”.
… I …I guess Squall’s doing better. Taking an interest in someone… else.
What in Hyne's name is WRONG with me? Fell apart like some naive little cadet... just becuase someone offered me attention and... hells. Hellfire.
Fuck.
I really am that needy.
So... I had sex with both Squall and Cloud (or the small part of Cloud that's running things right now) in the Music room. Squall said he loved me, and needed me. I hope I'm not pushing him into something he's not comfortable with, just because I'm not comfortable with it.
Was bounced to another room again, met up with Alex and Ashi and Greed again. Alex managed to do something I'd been hoping for for so long, she woke Siren up. She also woke up Carbuncle and Squall passed him off to Zack before passing out himself.
The sudden addition of a GF seems to have knocked Zack down a bit, will have to make sure he handles it alright... but no, get bounced to yet another room, where I get my visitor.
He's... unusual. But like all the other "natives" here, he doesn't accept that I'm not Sarah. Won't even conemplate it. Excuses away everything we do.
He was unusal enough I didn't try to have along look inside his mind, or let him in mine.