A lot of stuff you won't want to read.
I must admit this summer I have really done well for myself. It started off rough, with band practices and endless fighting and just feeling like I was going nowhere. Slowly but surely i got used to the whole deal...jamming with people and checking craigslist and jamming with more people. I guess i got used to the whole deal and found the dead end life ain't so bad...at least musically. In fact, now that i'm in a new band that's looking kind of promising I still find myself looking at the ads on craigslist wondering when somebody new's gonna get ahold of me! Guess you just get used to what you're doing, and it becomes habit and habits are hard to break.
That and mystically (and this one I really don't understand) i'm not so concerned with finding a girl. I mean, sure, being single has its downsides and sure, I would trade it in, but i'm not going to submit to being some girl's puppet just so i can get leg candy.
I'm also not talking to some of my friends as much. Part of it is just being busy, the other part is losing my patience with AIM and text messaging. I don't want to have most of my conversations be just words on a screen. Sure if the moment's right or i'm not really interested in what's going on around me i'll text. Who wouldn't? I'm not going to do it as much as i have before, though. And I kind of like not being around all the drama, mind you, half of it is worthless shit anyway. I realized somewhere this summer that we can't blame circumstance for what happens, because in the end we create our circumstances. Seeing that made me think, scared me, and made me get off my ass and do something about my life. Yeah, the desire for a "new life" or some clean getaway sometimes happens, and sometimes I feel like i'm still going nowhere despite my best efforts. But i can live with that. I'm going nowhere soon and i'm not so sure i want to. After all, I'd only find the same old mess waiting for me over that proverbial rainbow.
So if you're one of those people i'm not really talking to, you know the phone number. I'm not going to apologize for slipping away or anything like that.
And i'm not going to complain about it either.
That and mystically (and this one I really don't understand) i'm not so concerned with finding a girl. I mean, sure, being single has its downsides and sure, I would trade it in, but i'm not going to submit to being some girl's puppet just so i can get leg candy.
I'm also not talking to some of my friends as much. Part of it is just being busy, the other part is losing my patience with AIM and text messaging. I don't want to have most of my conversations be just words on a screen. Sure if the moment's right or i'm not really interested in what's going on around me i'll text. Who wouldn't? I'm not going to do it as much as i have before, though. And I kind of like not being around all the drama, mind you, half of it is worthless shit anyway. I realized somewhere this summer that we can't blame circumstance for what happens, because in the end we create our circumstances. Seeing that made me think, scared me, and made me get off my ass and do something about my life. Yeah, the desire for a "new life" or some clean getaway sometimes happens, and sometimes I feel like i'm still going nowhere despite my best efforts. But i can live with that. I'm going nowhere soon and i'm not so sure i want to. After all, I'd only find the same old mess waiting for me over that proverbial rainbow.
So if you're one of those people i'm not really talking to, you know the phone number. I'm not going to apologize for slipping away or anything like that.
And i'm not going to complain about it either.