with me...
It's so weird how fast this semester seems to have gone by. And how we're almost done high school. And how fast "the real world" is coming up. It seems like there are more conversations about university and what everyone wants to do with their lives lately, and it makes me realise that I really have no clue as to what I want to do. None at all. All I know is that it is not anything to do with Math or Science. I'm not super amazing at anything, so that doesn't really help me all that much. I hate thinking about this because it all makes me feel so... I don't even know. Unprepared? Scared? Lost? I don't exactly know. I just know I want to do something I enjoy, in some place I like. Which would not be Ottawa. My mum told me that I could possibly take a year off before university, and right now, I'm seriously considering it. Take that year and do something to find out about myself, and what I really and truly like and possibly want to do with my life. I just don't feel ready for anything right now. And I guess I'm scared. But what am I NOT scared of really? I'm pretty much scared of everything and doing anything. I'm scared of regretting what I do. Maybe just scared of myself? Who knows. Some people seem so confident and ready to face everything. But maybe you're never really ready to move on to that next part of your life? It just comes, and you have to deal with it. Kind of like high school I guess, except much much bigger.
Stupid Exams.