a step in the wrong direction.
i dont know what it was, i was doing well. i think maybe it was me just getting scared that mikey was getting with worrin or somthing that has caused me to spin out once again :( i went up to dinner to see my granma and unty and uncle and my family. we went out to a resturant and i could feel the tears inside of me. i didnt want to cry. my granma asked me how i found living alone. it wasnt long after when i looked my sister in the eye and the tears started once again. i had to leave the resturant as i didnt want to make a scene. i went somewhere dark outside and cryed alone. mum had followed me she was really sad because she thought i was doing so well. and in a way so did i :( she said last week she thought she had her son back again.. she told me somthing tonight that shes never told me or my sister. that when belinda and i were both young dad and her broke up. dad was seeing another woman. over time they got back together and she knows what im feeling. i dont know if this gives me hope or not. i guess not. im just so tired. i just wish i didnt care but i do and i cant help it :(