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it's almost 2 am. I'm sitting here. can't sleep. not tired. I'm feeling really... funny...
it's the sort of feeling that feels like your insides are bubbling, and twisiting and turning.... it feels like nausea... but it's not... you know?
It's the sort of feeling... that I would prefer to go to sleep and never wake up again....
I hope I'm not entering another phase of self-destruction.
it's weird, because, there is nothing wrong in my life. everything is excellent... aside from my marks...
it also feels like I'm not living up to anyone's standards... nobody's.
fuck. I don't care if you comment on this, and fucking tell me off. I need to get these thoughts out.. in order... so, fuck you.
*sigh* I think I'm just over-tired and over emotional. I'm going to bed...hopefully I'll be better in the morning