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I'm cold, I'm tired. I'm stressed.
These exams coming up are putting a great amount of pressure on me. It's the kind of pressure that tells me, "Matt, you need to succeed, you need to pass"
The thing is, I KNOW I have to succeed, I KNOW i have to pass, I KNOW i have to get past this stage in my life... but... I just can't. I don't know why. The doctors have come up with many explanations... but I believe that burning_string came up with the best one: I'm just bored. It's only the core subjects I have trouble in. anything that's nowhere near exciting.
This stress is making me go down... into that dark place I never wanted to go to again. I'm not eating right. I lack energy. I don't sleep right - I find myself falling asleep in the middle of the day. I don't have the cheerful, energetic lustre I used to.. but sometimes, I just FORCE it out to seem normal.
Trust me. it's totally different on the inside.
I feel pathetic.
This is taking a toll on me.. I just hope I can hold on to normality until exams are over.