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It's been a really long time since I updated my journal.
Alot has happened as I sat here and watched the end of the punisher, my mind is filled with thoughts which is really why I am posting this.
I'll get to the thoughts first before i forget
Here I am, 22 years and almost 3 months old. What have I really accomplished in life? What will I even do with my future in life?
I've spent my youth behaving, being the good guy, reletivly chivalrous, working my ass off, supporting my family, going to school halfassidly and maintaining a 3.5 gpa while doing it, occasionly hangingout with the few friends i have,I've had 1 girlfriend while most have had atleast 10 by my age, i used to complain occasionally that all i needed is a break from everything so i can just relax and have fun....i got that break(which i will get to later) and i spent most of my time in my room bored as all hell. I have really no awards to speak of in my 22 years(besides 4th place florida restaurant association knowledge bowl...woopiedidoo...again half assed it)
now lets actually examine some of this stuff i just wrote about:
Good guy/chivalrous- what has this gotton me? everyone else benefits off of my niceness..and it seems like im constantly used. Half of the people that randomly just talk to me who claim to be friends usually have something they want from me:whether it be advice or something else...but never do they ever call to hang out or anything....just so they have someoneto complain to! I will never be the one to ask for something...but it would be nice if some people actually offered things here and there.
I worked my motherfucking ass off to support my family - I have worked absolutely insane hours by most peoples standards just to support myfamily. At wings plus my typical work week just to make sure i had enough money to support them and have extra cash when the inevitable catastrophe happened(that i was the one of course who had to pay for it) was about 55 hours a week. When my family was in danger of getting kicked out, my 55 hours a week would sky rocket into consecutive 80+hour weeks. I made over 5 grand in 3 weeks! And i was still broke afterwards.
I've gone to broward community college for 2 years now....and because im halfassing it taking only 2 classes a semester i still have about another 2.5 years to go just to get my associates! at this rate i might actually get to start my career around 30. granted my hectic work schedule attributes to that lack of classes but if i dont really do much work in those classes and still get a 3.5 gpa....could it be possible for me to take more classes and actually work a little bit and keep that gpa? or maybe i really do just have way too much on my plate befoer i lose my mind?
I have very few friends in life. My main 2 friends ....D-19 years of friendship(goes to college fulltime 7 hours away and i only see him about 3 weeks out of the year) and danny-11 years of friendship(works a slightly hectic schedule and when i got a girlfriend last year he went off and got new friends and hangs out with them alot too. I still talk to lexy and we hang out occasionly. I think we finally came to the conclusioin we're good as friends but in a relationship we just clash too much. And besides that, i dont really have any other friends that ever want to hang out with me. Is there anything wrong with me? most people seem to like my personality(im pretty funny arent I?), im not that bad looking to be seen around with am i? And I guess the one girlfriend thing kindve ties into this as well. If I cant even get a supposed friend to hang out with me...how the hell can i ever get a girlfriend? heck how the hell did i even get the one i had? thats it on that subject
So i was fired by wings plus on january 4th after i took my long awaited vacation. Yea i was the one person that everyone thought was unfirable! However, I tried to actually do something nice one night. Sunday night, I took one of the cashiers(chelsea) home, as I dropped her off and circled around i thought i saw someone behind her house, and i was about to just ignore it but i decided i would play the hero(again mr nice guy bites me in the ass) and i came back around...didnt see anything, but i decided i would get out of my car and check it out anyway...just so happened that chelsea ended up going across teh street or something to talk to a friend really quick and saw me walk towards the back of her house, she called her mom and toldher to look. on my way back from checking out teh back of the house, i notice a WIDE open window, i stop for litterly a second, tilt my head(didnt even know what room it was) and just looked in(i was a good 3-4 feet from the window....not stalkerish up in the window) but i guess this was the time that her mom walked in her room and saw me(i didnt even see her) and i walked back to my car and left to go hang out with my friend casey.
I go to work the next night, and i finally got my cards officially saying i was the general manager of wings plus...i was pretty freaking happy that night...plus D was coming down in a couple of days! Then my boss pulls me aside and tells me chelseas mom wants to call the cops on my and blah blah blah. I'm thinking A)why didnt they come to me and not my boss first of all!? and B) after all ive done for my boss....he doesnt even believe me! So he actually asks me to give him my keys to the store. I was pissed! But i figured id get them back in like a week. So when i came back that friday i was noticing alot of disrespect from some of the younger staff(obviously word spread and no one actually asked me what really happened)and i eventually that night asked if i could get my keys back later that night, my boss has the balls to tell me "i dont know if youre going to get them back, i have to talk to my wife". That i was really fucking furious over, that was like a slap in the face for me cause i worked my ass off to get those keys. And yea so i was just continuously getting disrespected at work and i was tired of it. So xmas eve i put up that i was taking the next week and half off for my vacation. Obviously while i was gone, there was a bit more shit talking about me going on behind my back. Cause i came back on a thursday from my vacation. Had a good night at work. I even clocked out a little earlier then i usually do. and on my way back to finish my sandwich my boss walks up to me. "This is going to hurt me alot more then its going to hurt you, I'm going to have to let you go" he tells me. I reply "How is it going to hurt you more, i have a family to support, i dont have the bank account you have." and he went on about how is laywer told him he was insane for keeping me there(when it really had nothing to do with work since we were both out of work...and most importantly...I DIDNT DO ANYTHING! but yea...so the unfirable kyle from wings plus was fired. Even though he did give me a $500 severance pay....even though he didnt pay me for my last day....and jipped me out of chunk of my vacation pay too...so my $500 severance pay was really like $370....my books this semester took half of that right away!
I spent 3 weeks without a paycheck. Applying to every restaurant in my city(about 12 applications are out there now. I finally got a job at this local restaurant...big bear brewing co. (kindve high end stuff) as a food runner making $7/hour plus tips...not bad....still not making nearly the money i wasmaking as the GM!
Wow I'm exhausted! Sorry it was such a long entry...im sure most of you wont even read most of it. But thats pretty much my past. I'm really too tired to write about my worries about my future right now. I'll try to get to that soon. just know that they exist
and for old times sake....
- Quothe this Reaper....Nevermore
Alot has happened as I sat here and watched the end of the punisher, my mind is filled with thoughts which is really why I am posting this.
I'll get to the thoughts first before i forget
Here I am, 22 years and almost 3 months old. What have I really accomplished in life? What will I even do with my future in life?
I've spent my youth behaving, being the good guy, reletivly chivalrous, working my ass off, supporting my family, going to school halfassidly and maintaining a 3.5 gpa while doing it, occasionly hangingout with the few friends i have,I've had 1 girlfriend while most have had atleast 10 by my age, i used to complain occasionally that all i needed is a break from everything so i can just relax and have fun....i got that break(which i will get to later) and i spent most of my time in my room bored as all hell. I have really no awards to speak of in my 22 years(besides 4th place florida restaurant association knowledge bowl...woopiedidoo...again half assed it)
now lets actually examine some of this stuff i just wrote about:
Good guy/chivalrous- what has this gotton me? everyone else benefits off of my niceness..and it seems like im constantly used. Half of the people that randomly just talk to me who claim to be friends usually have something they want from me:whether it be advice or something else...but never do they ever call to hang out or anything....just so they have someoneto complain to! I will never be the one to ask for something...but it would be nice if some people actually offered things here and there.
I worked my motherfucking ass off to support my family - I have worked absolutely insane hours by most peoples standards just to support myfamily. At wings plus my typical work week just to make sure i had enough money to support them and have extra cash when the inevitable catastrophe happened(that i was the one of course who had to pay for it) was about 55 hours a week. When my family was in danger of getting kicked out, my 55 hours a week would sky rocket into consecutive 80+hour weeks. I made over 5 grand in 3 weeks! And i was still broke afterwards.
I've gone to broward community college for 2 years now....and because im halfassing it taking only 2 classes a semester i still have about another 2.5 years to go just to get my associates! at this rate i might actually get to start my career around 30. granted my hectic work schedule attributes to that lack of classes but if i dont really do much work in those classes and still get a 3.5 gpa....could it be possible for me to take more classes and actually work a little bit and keep that gpa? or maybe i really do just have way too much on my plate befoer i lose my mind?
I have very few friends in life. My main 2 friends ....D-19 years of friendship(goes to college fulltime 7 hours away and i only see him about 3 weeks out of the year) and danny-11 years of friendship(works a slightly hectic schedule and when i got a girlfriend last year he went off and got new friends and hangs out with them alot too. I still talk to lexy and we hang out occasionly. I think we finally came to the conclusioin we're good as friends but in a relationship we just clash too much. And besides that, i dont really have any other friends that ever want to hang out with me. Is there anything wrong with me? most people seem to like my personality(im pretty funny arent I?), im not that bad looking to be seen around with am i? And I guess the one girlfriend thing kindve ties into this as well. If I cant even get a supposed friend to hang out with me...how the hell can i ever get a girlfriend? heck how the hell did i even get the one i had? thats it on that subject
So i was fired by wings plus on january 4th after i took my long awaited vacation. Yea i was the one person that everyone thought was unfirable! However, I tried to actually do something nice one night. Sunday night, I took one of the cashiers(chelsea) home, as I dropped her off and circled around i thought i saw someone behind her house, and i was about to just ignore it but i decided i would play the hero(again mr nice guy bites me in the ass) and i came back around...didnt see anything, but i decided i would get out of my car and check it out anyway...just so happened that chelsea ended up going across teh street or something to talk to a friend really quick and saw me walk towards the back of her house, she called her mom and toldher to look. on my way back from checking out teh back of the house, i notice a WIDE open window, i stop for litterly a second, tilt my head(didnt even know what room it was) and just looked in(i was a good 3-4 feet from the window....not stalkerish up in the window) but i guess this was the time that her mom walked in her room and saw me(i didnt even see her) and i walked back to my car and left to go hang out with my friend casey.
I go to work the next night, and i finally got my cards officially saying i was the general manager of wings plus...i was pretty freaking happy that night...plus D was coming down in a couple of days! Then my boss pulls me aside and tells me chelseas mom wants to call the cops on my and blah blah blah. I'm thinking A)why didnt they come to me and not my boss first of all!? and B) after all ive done for my boss....he doesnt even believe me! So he actually asks me to give him my keys to the store. I was pissed! But i figured id get them back in like a week. So when i came back that friday i was noticing alot of disrespect from some of the younger staff(obviously word spread and no one actually asked me what really happened)and i eventually that night asked if i could get my keys back later that night, my boss has the balls to tell me "i dont know if youre going to get them back, i have to talk to my wife". That i was really fucking furious over, that was like a slap in the face for me cause i worked my ass off to get those keys. And yea so i was just continuously getting disrespected at work and i was tired of it. So xmas eve i put up that i was taking the next week and half off for my vacation. Obviously while i was gone, there was a bit more shit talking about me going on behind my back. Cause i came back on a thursday from my vacation. Had a good night at work. I even clocked out a little earlier then i usually do. and on my way back to finish my sandwich my boss walks up to me. "This is going to hurt me alot more then its going to hurt you, I'm going to have to let you go" he tells me. I reply "How is it going to hurt you more, i have a family to support, i dont have the bank account you have." and he went on about how is laywer told him he was insane for keeping me there(when it really had nothing to do with work since we were both out of work...and most importantly...I DIDNT DO ANYTHING! but yea...so the unfirable kyle from wings plus was fired. Even though he did give me a $500 severance pay....even though he didnt pay me for my last day....and jipped me out of chunk of my vacation pay too...so my $500 severance pay was really like $370....my books this semester took half of that right away!
I spent 3 weeks without a paycheck. Applying to every restaurant in my city(about 12 applications are out there now. I finally got a job at this local restaurant...big bear brewing co. (kindve high end stuff) as a food runner making $7/hour plus tips...not bad....still not making nearly the money i wasmaking as the GM!
Wow I'm exhausted! Sorry it was such a long entry...im sure most of you wont even read most of it. But thats pretty much my past. I'm really too tired to write about my worries about my future right now. I'll try to get to that soon. just know that they exist
and for old times sake....
- Quothe this Reaper....Nevermore