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the connecticut shootings kind of hit me somewhere beyond the usual sadness. when i heard the news, i immediately cried and thought of all the people in my life and how hard it would be to lose any one of them. and then the first real, clear thought after that was: "i need to be a legislator." i've toyed with the idea for a long time, and it's always been a thought in the back of my head. and i still can't say now that it is something that i definitely want to do. but i can't shake how weird it was for that to come through my brain - it was almost as if the idea came from someone else. i don't think i've ever referred to our law makers as legislators before. but yet, there it was... in my head, so clearly. and that voice - whosever it was - was so sure. that clarity just reiterates how it feels that it was not me, considering all the plans for my future gather together and form a huge question mark. but still, i feel like something changed inside of me after that, and i can't quite figure it out.
will i mention that moment later during an acceptance speech? was that a moment that will go on to defy my life? will it lead me somewhere completely opposite of what i feel like it is telling me now? will i forget about it next week? i don't know - but in anticipation for it being something, i feel like it must be written down. and where else, but here?
will i mention that moment later during an acceptance speech? was that a moment that will go on to defy my life? will it lead me somewhere completely opposite of what i feel like it is telling me now? will i forget about it next week? i don't know - but in anticipation for it being something, i feel like it must be written down. and where else, but here?