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I just came back from a solo thinking-alone time walk.
Yes, it is currently 1:30 at night.
Yes, it is beginning to mist outside.
Yes, the wind is extremely cold.
Yes, I had just gotten out of the shower.
Yes, I was (still am, actually) hungry and thirsty.
But I needed some thinking time.
About what?
About love.
(duh)
I guess all the things I need can be summed up into two categories.
(sneezes twice) Uh oh, I really hope i'm not catching sick.
Anyways, yes.
(munches Cheez-its quietly cause Sam is asleep)
I guess I want some alone time. But in that alone time I want to be warm on nights like this.
It's kind of hard to explain the two things. One involves smothering me with attention (online, on phone, in person), but giving me time to hang out with friends or be alone. The other involves being here, being able to cuddle and be warm.
Especially on a night like this.
I guess it's a fine line between seriousness and fun.
...brb, I need a soda.
(btw, all of you reading this, but are uninvolved in the current drama that's playing non-stop through my theatre of a head... i apologize for spamming your lj friends list. Now I continue ^_^)
Now, don't read too much unto this. I'm ranting at midnight under the influence of Cheez-its and diet Peosi. I ramble at night, as you all should know by now.
...hell, I ramble period.
But yes. Where was I?
Oh yeah, the point.
The point of this post.
I need some alone time.
I'm too far from Amy... plus I don't want her to have me as a hindrance. I've seen girls with guys at a young age... they depend on them too much... it's not a pretty sight.
As for Amanda, I'm way too insecure for her.
So in the end, I guess it works out. I'll talk to you both about this later, I guess... if you even bother reading this drama-ridden thing at all.
I really really need a hobby. I don't have a hobby, so I spend my time being lonely (I don't study, hence my C average). I think my hobby will be walks... but walks are only fun on overcast days, or at night. I used to have Neopets, but I don't wanna no more... heh. Sleep? Hah. I ono, I'll find something I guess.
Well, I'm off to play some games or listen to music or somethign. I wouldn't be surprised if I didn't get any sleep at all tonight.
Yes, it is currently 1:30 at night.
Yes, it is beginning to mist outside.
Yes, the wind is extremely cold.
Yes, I had just gotten out of the shower.
Yes, I was (still am, actually) hungry and thirsty.
But I needed some thinking time.
About what?
About love.
(duh)
I guess all the things I need can be summed up into two categories.
(sneezes twice) Uh oh, I really hope i'm not catching sick.
Anyways, yes.
(munches Cheez-its quietly cause Sam is asleep)
I guess I want some alone time. But in that alone time I want to be warm on nights like this.
It's kind of hard to explain the two things. One involves smothering me with attention (online, on phone, in person), but giving me time to hang out with friends or be alone. The other involves being here, being able to cuddle and be warm.
Especially on a night like this.
I guess it's a fine line between seriousness and fun.
...brb, I need a soda.
(btw, all of you reading this, but are uninvolved in the current drama that's playing non-stop through my theatre of a head... i apologize for spamming your lj friends list. Now I continue ^_^)
Now, don't read too much unto this. I'm ranting at midnight under the influence of Cheez-its and diet Peosi. I ramble at night, as you all should know by now.
...hell, I ramble period.
But yes. Where was I?
Oh yeah, the point.
The point of this post.
I need some alone time.
I'm too far from Amy... plus I don't want her to have me as a hindrance. I've seen girls with guys at a young age... they depend on them too much... it's not a pretty sight.
As for Amanda, I'm way too insecure for her.
So in the end, I guess it works out. I'll talk to you both about this later, I guess... if you even bother reading this drama-ridden thing at all.
I really really need a hobby. I don't have a hobby, so I spend my time being lonely (I don't study, hence my C average). I think my hobby will be walks... but walks are only fun on overcast days, or at night. I used to have Neopets, but I don't wanna no more... heh. Sleep? Hah. I ono, I'll find something I guess.
Well, I'm off to play some games or listen to music or somethign. I wouldn't be surprised if I didn't get any sleep at all tonight.