New Fic!
Title: Not mine
Author: Pusa_sa_tabi/meow2x
Pairings: Sasuke/Naruto
Rating: PG ( for sexual reference)
Warning: UNBETAED...watch out for killer tenses and monster grammar..
Disclaimer: Naruto and Sasuke is not mine..they belong to each other…
A/N: For maruneko and shikanashi_kk…thanks for being there for me always..i really appreciate it! *hugs*
Summary: When Sakura married Sasuke, she thought he’s already hers…is he?
“Sasuke,dinner is ready”
“I’ll eat later,I’m going to the study. There’s a new jutsu I have to research”
Its always like this these past week, he would come home late after his work as the leader of the ANBU, while I prepare the dinner also late because I would insist to eat with him. But he would only spare me a glance and say those words to me. I would wait for him to eat nonetheless. Even if he wouldn’t eat at all.
I know there is no new jutsu to research, as a medic nin I would know if there is one, also as the right-hand of Tsunade I would be the one to be assigned to research on that such subject for medical purposes. I know he’ll be looking at that file. His file. The one he’s been researching for 5 years. Dutifully writing rumors,gossips and filed reports from different resources he find while he’s on the mission. I know all of this, Ino would see to it to tell me about his futile obsession on him. He’ll never came back he’s been missing for 3 years and hasn’t come back even after my husband returned to Konoha.
I was the first person who welcomed him, even if all the people scorned him,I’m there for him, just like what I have said on the night he leave Konoha. I would always love him no matter what even if his heart belongs to him. A week after his return I asked him out and he unexpectedly said yes. I was ecstatic this is the first time, I even asked for Ino’s help on my hair and make-up. I even ignored the reason behind this so called ‘date’. He admitted to me that he only agreed to come because he wanted to talk about the good times. The times when the team 7 is still intact. When he was with Him.
Uzumaki Naruto disappeared when we where 17, some say he’s gone to a special training outside the village with Jiraiya which surprisingly also been gone, some says he joined the Akatsuki, one rumor has been answered. He’s not with Sasuke. Tsunade send ANBU and hunter nin to look for him but as years passed he still haven’t been found.
As those years passed, Sauske learned to love me ,or so I thought . I was the dominant of this relationship, I was the one to initiate everything. I was also proud to say that I was the one to propose marriage. I got my man after all those painful and heartbreaking years of waiting for him. He’s mine as long as he doesn’t come back, because I know I share my husband with him. With Naruto.
For 2 years that we are married, he’s a good husband to me. He’s a great provider, as a matter of fact he could choose not to work because of his inheritance but he still choose to do so. He would become a Jounin next month and I would throw a party for that occasion. We are living in a domesticated bliss. He would make love to me in almost daily basis I was happy, except for the part when he would scream his name sometimes when he came. It shook me to my guts that even in our most intimate moment; I still have to share it with him.
It enough for me, him coming home to me everyday. I would always see to it that I’ll be there for him when he comes home, to make him dinner. To initiate sex with him if he’s not that tired. Maybe that’s why he called his name when he came. Maybe Naruto always the one to initiate that when they are still together. Those times when they are still sneaking in dark alleyways to make-out or pretending to be sick to have their ‘private time’.
I know this also, I walked in to them on my hastiness to go to my Sasuke-kun when Kakashi told me that there’s no mission for that day. They were in bed, he was lying down, face flushed and gasping while Naruto was between his legs. He was looking down at him their eyes locked with each other, while his hand gripped the blond hair mouth gaping with pleasure that only Naruto can give him. They did not see me flee the scene nor acknowledge that they saw me the morning after.
Something break inside of me that day, I cried my self to sleep. I still cannot count the nights when I would wake up to feel the wetness in my pillows as I cry myself again to sleep, they are not aware of having me broken. I still continued to be the happy Sakura that I am. A deceptive appearance. I remained broken even if he’s here with me, but I’m not alone. The day that he left him unconscious in the borders of Konoha was the day that he started to be like me. Broken because of not having the one I love with me.
He would have nightmares of that day, he would call him is his sleep. sometimes in fear, sometimes in lust but mostly in longing. He would be shivering and his hand would make this seizing and grabbing motions, he would whimper his name again and again. I will hold him close to me but never waking him up. Because I know that he’s happy when he’s dreaming, he would be with him even if it’s only in his dreams.
I glanced at the clock, 10:00 and we still haven’t eaten. I’ll have to bring him his dinner now. I will not eat this night like last night or the night after that. I have no appetite since this week, since he ignored me more and more for that file. The file which I accidentally saw when I was dusting under the table of the study. The frayed and yellowing color of the folder caught my eyes, he wasn’t the kind of person to save old things. My curiosity for that folder got the better of me especially when the label is “Kyuubi” . There’s only one person who I know has the codename Kyuubi. Maybe he wasn’t aware that I knew that Naruto is the Kyuubi. Naruto told me that a week before he left.
I knocked at the door, laden with tray of food for him, he told me to come in while casually clearing the papers in the table, I saw the folder under those papers, but I pretend not to see it.
“Sasuke, would you come home early tomorrow? Remember we have to go to Ino’s house for her baby shower party”
“Okay.”
I saw that uncertain look in his eyes. He doesn’t like to go I knew it. But he said yes anyway, just to make it up to me after all he doesn’t join me with dinner. I left him alone after that. I cleaned the kitchen and goes to bed hoping that tomorrow my husband will return to his old self. The one that I learned to love. Even if his heart doesn’t belong to me.
~~~~**~~~~
True to his words, he did came home early that night, he kissed me when he got home, complimented me on my pretty dress before he took a shower to freshen up. We left the house looking good. A picture of a perfect happy couple except for that small distance between us, up to now he still doesn’t held my hand nor kissed me in public. But that’s okay with me, as longs as he’s right beside me I won’t mind the cold air that passed between that small distance.
Ino as always is a gracious hostess, never mind that Shikamaru is sulking and mumbling at the background because this party is troublesome and he has many profitable things to do that act as a waiter for the guest. Such a doting father he would be, and that comment was welcomed with a giggle by the mother-to-be. She’s already 9 months pregnant and expecting to give birth next week. Her stomach is so enormous that she’s already leaning backwards. She lets me feel the baby kick, tears lined my eyes as we sat at the kitchen after the party, my hand feeling the young life inside her body. How I wish I could also have that baby in my stomach, but I know that it won’t be his.
Ino told me about the newest rumor concerning about Naruto, he’s been see on the outskirts of Konoha with Jiraiya. I pretended that I haven’t heard it from the conversations of Tsunade and Iruka when he visited that day. He was still welcome here since he’s not been marked as missing nin. She gave me that comforting hug while I gave her an ‘its okay’ shrug. We ended our conversation about him, but I know she wanted to say more but she must have noticed my unshed tears and keep it all to herself.
That night after we go to bed he excused himself, he vaguely said to me that he will have to back to work again, I let him be since I know its futile for me to tell him to go to bed cause he’ll just brush me off when he’s inside that study, with Naruto’s file. Maybe this night will be the same as always.
~~~**~~~
There’s a knock at door, I glanced at the bedside clock. 2:00 AM, who in the right mind would be visiting our house at this time. I felt chilled all of a sudden; he’s still did not came back from the study, I strained my hearing to hear if he already opened the door. When the knocking continued I rouse from the bed and began to walk to the door, I passed by at the study the lights still on. He may have lost himself again in his own world and decided to ignore the outside world.
Still the same as always, tonight may not be an exception. Even if he’s wounded he would still go to the study even for just a while, just for him to see his picture for just a while. Like saying I came home, Naruto. Safe and sound. It’s as if he’s expecting one day to tell that to him face to face when he comes home after a strenuous mission. Sasuke still belonged to Naruto even after all those years. Just as Naruto belonged to Sasuke.
That thought is swimming in my mind when I opened the door. The silence was deafening after his last knock. Cold air breezed inside the room as he removed his hood to show blond locks still sticking up in the air, nothing changed in him. He’s still has that clear blue eyes and those 3 lines that mark his cheek. He finally came. Came to take what I still thought as mine, even if deep inside I knew that it’s never true. Sasuke is never mine and He came to claim Sasuke back.
We looked at each other for a long time, there is some change in him anyways, he looks thinner and taller, but those blue eyes who once held happiness is shadowed with hundreds of different emotion: fear, happiness, longing, despair and hope. My own eyes filled up with tears as I stared at those eyes. I feel numbed all of a sudden when he hugged me. I held on to him briefly, as tears began to spill in my eyes.
“He came back and He’s waiting” I told him when I broke away from his hug. He looked at me again, that look as laden with meaning, as if asking for permission. I gestured for him to come in. I wanted to laugh and cry at the same time as I lead him to the room. We were walking side by side, saying noting. Him silent for the first time I’ve been with him. Maybe he really has changed, but I know there’s one thing that will never change in him.
He really belonged to Sasuke, just like what it should be.
I know that in my heart as I opened the door for him in the study, Sasuke was still writing something and he still doesn’t notice us.
“Sasuke” Naruto whispered softly at my side.
Sasuke’s back stiffened when he heard his voice, his head rose slowly. I saw his reflection on the mirror across the room. His face frozen and his eyes wide from joy and relief. Its like he have expected him to come this night, for him to come back to his arms that night. I’ve been right on what I said to Naruto. He’s still waiting for him.
He turned his chair to us, his features relaxed for the first time since he came back here in Konoha. An aura of pure joy and love radiated from him. It’s like seeing Sasuke for the first time. Naruto moves slowly to him, his Sasuke ,blue eyes lock with black towards. Yes, His Sasuke, the same Sasuke that was my husband just 5 hours ago. Sasuke who doesn’t even noticed me standing in the background. His eyes and attention, just for the blond in front of him. His Naruto have come back. Still love him. Him still loving him.
Just like it should be.
Naruto stood in front of him now, extending a shaky hand and placed it on Sasuke’s cheek as he closed his eyes. Sasuke also closed his eyes slowly, relishing the contact, their first contact after 8 years of not seeing each other. I stared at them even after Naruto collapsed in front of Sasuke, face buried in Sasuke’s lap. Shoulders shook with emotions and unsuppressed sobs. My eyes took all of it, the way Sasuke’s cold mask slowly shattered, its pieces began to slid away one by one as his true emotions begun to show. His face was streaked with tears.
Those tears for the only one he truly loved.
“Naruto” Sasuke’s voice shaky and filled with emotion, he caressed the blond hair in his lap. Naruto looked up from his lap and Sasuke leaned his forehead against Naruto, raises his hand to his face to caress those cheeks and to wipe away those shed tears.
I left them alone when they begun to kiss. I shut the door and turned to go back to our…no their room to pack. I’ve come to a decision and my resolve is now final. I’ll file for divorce tomorrow, he’s going to be free. They will be free.
Have a happy life…both of you…you really deserve it. Together.
End
*sobs*
Such a sad fic,I hope I gave Sakura justice on this fic,I was known for being a Saskura basher…but I took pity of her on this fic..
A/N:
I got this idea after I read Taradine’s fiction “Inevitable”,it’s a Harry/Draco fiction... its based on Ginny POV..it really good…it’s a sad fic, you’ll really feel sorry for her but in the end you will admire her that she let him go in the end. *sobs*
I would really like to thank her for that fic,it cured me of my laziness.. right maruneko-chan! *smiles sheepishly*
Author: Pusa_sa_tabi/meow2x
Pairings: Sasuke/Naruto
Rating: PG ( for sexual reference)
Warning: UNBETAED...watch out for killer tenses and monster grammar..
Disclaimer: Naruto and Sasuke is not mine..they belong to each other…
A/N: For maruneko and shikanashi_kk…thanks for being there for me always..i really appreciate it! *hugs*
Summary: When Sakura married Sasuke, she thought he’s already hers…is he?
“Sasuke,dinner is ready”
“I’ll eat later,I’m going to the study. There’s a new jutsu I have to research”
Its always like this these past week, he would come home late after his work as the leader of the ANBU, while I prepare the dinner also late because I would insist to eat with him. But he would only spare me a glance and say those words to me. I would wait for him to eat nonetheless. Even if he wouldn’t eat at all.
I know there is no new jutsu to research, as a medic nin I would know if there is one, also as the right-hand of Tsunade I would be the one to be assigned to research on that such subject for medical purposes. I know he’ll be looking at that file. His file. The one he’s been researching for 5 years. Dutifully writing rumors,gossips and filed reports from different resources he find while he’s on the mission. I know all of this, Ino would see to it to tell me about his futile obsession on him. He’ll never came back he’s been missing for 3 years and hasn’t come back even after my husband returned to Konoha.
I was the first person who welcomed him, even if all the people scorned him,I’m there for him, just like what I have said on the night he leave Konoha. I would always love him no matter what even if his heart belongs to him. A week after his return I asked him out and he unexpectedly said yes. I was ecstatic this is the first time, I even asked for Ino’s help on my hair and make-up. I even ignored the reason behind this so called ‘date’. He admitted to me that he only agreed to come because he wanted to talk about the good times. The times when the team 7 is still intact. When he was with Him.
Uzumaki Naruto disappeared when we where 17, some say he’s gone to a special training outside the village with Jiraiya which surprisingly also been gone, some says he joined the Akatsuki, one rumor has been answered. He’s not with Sasuke. Tsunade send ANBU and hunter nin to look for him but as years passed he still haven’t been found.
As those years passed, Sauske learned to love me ,or so I thought . I was the dominant of this relationship, I was the one to initiate everything. I was also proud to say that I was the one to propose marriage. I got my man after all those painful and heartbreaking years of waiting for him. He’s mine as long as he doesn’t come back, because I know I share my husband with him. With Naruto.
For 2 years that we are married, he’s a good husband to me. He’s a great provider, as a matter of fact he could choose not to work because of his inheritance but he still choose to do so. He would become a Jounin next month and I would throw a party for that occasion. We are living in a domesticated bliss. He would make love to me in almost daily basis I was happy, except for the part when he would scream his name sometimes when he came. It shook me to my guts that even in our most intimate moment; I still have to share it with him.
It enough for me, him coming home to me everyday. I would always see to it that I’ll be there for him when he comes home, to make him dinner. To initiate sex with him if he’s not that tired. Maybe that’s why he called his name when he came. Maybe Naruto always the one to initiate that when they are still together. Those times when they are still sneaking in dark alleyways to make-out or pretending to be sick to have their ‘private time’.
I know this also, I walked in to them on my hastiness to go to my Sasuke-kun when Kakashi told me that there’s no mission for that day. They were in bed, he was lying down, face flushed and gasping while Naruto was between his legs. He was looking down at him their eyes locked with each other, while his hand gripped the blond hair mouth gaping with pleasure that only Naruto can give him. They did not see me flee the scene nor acknowledge that they saw me the morning after.
Something break inside of me that day, I cried my self to sleep. I still cannot count the nights when I would wake up to feel the wetness in my pillows as I cry myself again to sleep, they are not aware of having me broken. I still continued to be the happy Sakura that I am. A deceptive appearance. I remained broken even if he’s here with me, but I’m not alone. The day that he left him unconscious in the borders of Konoha was the day that he started to be like me. Broken because of not having the one I love with me.
He would have nightmares of that day, he would call him is his sleep. sometimes in fear, sometimes in lust but mostly in longing. He would be shivering and his hand would make this seizing and grabbing motions, he would whimper his name again and again. I will hold him close to me but never waking him up. Because I know that he’s happy when he’s dreaming, he would be with him even if it’s only in his dreams.
I glanced at the clock, 10:00 and we still haven’t eaten. I’ll have to bring him his dinner now. I will not eat this night like last night or the night after that. I have no appetite since this week, since he ignored me more and more for that file. The file which I accidentally saw when I was dusting under the table of the study. The frayed and yellowing color of the folder caught my eyes, he wasn’t the kind of person to save old things. My curiosity for that folder got the better of me especially when the label is “Kyuubi” . There’s only one person who I know has the codename Kyuubi. Maybe he wasn’t aware that I knew that Naruto is the Kyuubi. Naruto told me that a week before he left.
I knocked at the door, laden with tray of food for him, he told me to come in while casually clearing the papers in the table, I saw the folder under those papers, but I pretend not to see it.
“Sasuke, would you come home early tomorrow? Remember we have to go to Ino’s house for her baby shower party”
“Okay.”
I saw that uncertain look in his eyes. He doesn’t like to go I knew it. But he said yes anyway, just to make it up to me after all he doesn’t join me with dinner. I left him alone after that. I cleaned the kitchen and goes to bed hoping that tomorrow my husband will return to his old self. The one that I learned to love. Even if his heart doesn’t belong to me.
~~~~**~~~~
True to his words, he did came home early that night, he kissed me when he got home, complimented me on my pretty dress before he took a shower to freshen up. We left the house looking good. A picture of a perfect happy couple except for that small distance between us, up to now he still doesn’t held my hand nor kissed me in public. But that’s okay with me, as longs as he’s right beside me I won’t mind the cold air that passed between that small distance.
Ino as always is a gracious hostess, never mind that Shikamaru is sulking and mumbling at the background because this party is troublesome and he has many profitable things to do that act as a waiter for the guest. Such a doting father he would be, and that comment was welcomed with a giggle by the mother-to-be. She’s already 9 months pregnant and expecting to give birth next week. Her stomach is so enormous that she’s already leaning backwards. She lets me feel the baby kick, tears lined my eyes as we sat at the kitchen after the party, my hand feeling the young life inside her body. How I wish I could also have that baby in my stomach, but I know that it won’t be his.
Ino told me about the newest rumor concerning about Naruto, he’s been see on the outskirts of Konoha with Jiraiya. I pretended that I haven’t heard it from the conversations of Tsunade and Iruka when he visited that day. He was still welcome here since he’s not been marked as missing nin. She gave me that comforting hug while I gave her an ‘its okay’ shrug. We ended our conversation about him, but I know she wanted to say more but she must have noticed my unshed tears and keep it all to herself.
That night after we go to bed he excused himself, he vaguely said to me that he will have to back to work again, I let him be since I know its futile for me to tell him to go to bed cause he’ll just brush me off when he’s inside that study, with Naruto’s file. Maybe this night will be the same as always.
~~~**~~~
There’s a knock at door, I glanced at the bedside clock. 2:00 AM, who in the right mind would be visiting our house at this time. I felt chilled all of a sudden; he’s still did not came back from the study, I strained my hearing to hear if he already opened the door. When the knocking continued I rouse from the bed and began to walk to the door, I passed by at the study the lights still on. He may have lost himself again in his own world and decided to ignore the outside world.
Still the same as always, tonight may not be an exception. Even if he’s wounded he would still go to the study even for just a while, just for him to see his picture for just a while. Like saying I came home, Naruto. Safe and sound. It’s as if he’s expecting one day to tell that to him face to face when he comes home after a strenuous mission. Sasuke still belonged to Naruto even after all those years. Just as Naruto belonged to Sasuke.
That thought is swimming in my mind when I opened the door. The silence was deafening after his last knock. Cold air breezed inside the room as he removed his hood to show blond locks still sticking up in the air, nothing changed in him. He’s still has that clear blue eyes and those 3 lines that mark his cheek. He finally came. Came to take what I still thought as mine, even if deep inside I knew that it’s never true. Sasuke is never mine and He came to claim Sasuke back.
We looked at each other for a long time, there is some change in him anyways, he looks thinner and taller, but those blue eyes who once held happiness is shadowed with hundreds of different emotion: fear, happiness, longing, despair and hope. My own eyes filled up with tears as I stared at those eyes. I feel numbed all of a sudden when he hugged me. I held on to him briefly, as tears began to spill in my eyes.
“He came back and He’s waiting” I told him when I broke away from his hug. He looked at me again, that look as laden with meaning, as if asking for permission. I gestured for him to come in. I wanted to laugh and cry at the same time as I lead him to the room. We were walking side by side, saying noting. Him silent for the first time I’ve been with him. Maybe he really has changed, but I know there’s one thing that will never change in him.
He really belonged to Sasuke, just like what it should be.
I know that in my heart as I opened the door for him in the study, Sasuke was still writing something and he still doesn’t notice us.
“Sasuke” Naruto whispered softly at my side.
Sasuke’s back stiffened when he heard his voice, his head rose slowly. I saw his reflection on the mirror across the room. His face frozen and his eyes wide from joy and relief. Its like he have expected him to come this night, for him to come back to his arms that night. I’ve been right on what I said to Naruto. He’s still waiting for him.
He turned his chair to us, his features relaxed for the first time since he came back here in Konoha. An aura of pure joy and love radiated from him. It’s like seeing Sasuke for the first time. Naruto moves slowly to him, his Sasuke ,blue eyes lock with black towards. Yes, His Sasuke, the same Sasuke that was my husband just 5 hours ago. Sasuke who doesn’t even noticed me standing in the background. His eyes and attention, just for the blond in front of him. His Naruto have come back. Still love him. Him still loving him.
Just like it should be.
Naruto stood in front of him now, extending a shaky hand and placed it on Sasuke’s cheek as he closed his eyes. Sasuke also closed his eyes slowly, relishing the contact, their first contact after 8 years of not seeing each other. I stared at them even after Naruto collapsed in front of Sasuke, face buried in Sasuke’s lap. Shoulders shook with emotions and unsuppressed sobs. My eyes took all of it, the way Sasuke’s cold mask slowly shattered, its pieces began to slid away one by one as his true emotions begun to show. His face was streaked with tears.
Those tears for the only one he truly loved.
“Naruto” Sasuke’s voice shaky and filled with emotion, he caressed the blond hair in his lap. Naruto looked up from his lap and Sasuke leaned his forehead against Naruto, raises his hand to his face to caress those cheeks and to wipe away those shed tears.
I left them alone when they begun to kiss. I shut the door and turned to go back to our…no their room to pack. I’ve come to a decision and my resolve is now final. I’ll file for divorce tomorrow, he’s going to be free. They will be free.
Have a happy life…both of you…you really deserve it. Together.
End
*sobs*
Such a sad fic,I hope I gave Sakura justice on this fic,I was known for being a Saskura basher…but I took pity of her on this fic..
A/N:
I got this idea after I read Taradine’s fiction “Inevitable”,it’s a Harry/Draco fiction... its based on Ginny POV..it really good…it’s a sad fic, you’ll really feel sorry for her but in the end you will admire her that she let him go in the end. *sobs*
I would really like to thank her for that fic,it cured me of my laziness.. right maruneko-chan! *smiles sheepishly*