unalfamegabatismo
Step Outside is doing a Tropicalia special tonight. sure, it's my entire Tropicalia collection, but it sounds so good coming out of the radio. why is this music so wonderful, powerful? beautiful? why is there so much sound and earthly magick in it? like i could just fall in love all over and all over....
it has been an odd alpha omega day of sort. climaxes and anti climaxes...
ironies i was expecting....
- i received copies of my book, i open the pages-- there are all those dedications! and then i read through it, thought it was the worst book i'd ever read and then found my favorite parts and loved them. found my least faves and loved that too. who would neglect a child?
- there is cause to celebrate....one of my greatest friends is here from out of town and that is celebration enough too. i would open up a bottle of wine, but they're all open.
- i was so busy today, found a remedy and then STOP!-- i revisit a cycle i didn't want to. had to talk someone down, let her cry on my shoulder, apply hug, say that it would be okay. with this other person, i have seen this happen before. i don't want to be in the middle and yet, here i am. having to break up a feud between people.
- then again, trying not to trip and fall into anybody's holes....
- i had homework from writerscafe and the topic was to write an erotic story. in my current block i was still able to write a story about two almost-strangers sequestering themselves in a cabin to fuck themselves to death. you know, the usual family fare i enjoy writing.
the champagne should have popped, there should be a celebration. i just don't know what to do with myself. maybe i will drink to celebrate.
in a forest, an animal finds a piece of food. he is afraid of losing it. he doesn't know if he should be happy he found it. he knows he must eat it and he can't store it because someone will steal it from him.