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I got bumped up into Varsity Ensamble. Isn't that cool. I mean, now it is since it's been a few days, because at first I felt all guilty and bad...
I've been talking to Steven Cleary alot more lately. He's different. Like not what I expected... It's....interesting. He says he's more than what he acts like at school. From what I have gathered from what I've been talking to him about it is so. He listens to... good music.. like sweet music, from people with amazing voices. I can't describe it. It isn't natural. He had me downloading all this stuff and I didn't find anything I didn't like. I wish he was more like this.. I don't know..more often. I'm not really being clear, but do I really have to? He's not. It hurts my head trying to figure out what I mean. Try to bare with me, I don't quite know what I'm saying. I guess I won't bother trying to figure myself or him out. He's an enigma wrapped in a kinundrum wearing a riddle.
I feel so blank. LIke fresh paper. Please write on me because this isn't a great feeling. It's so differen't.. I can't trust the judgements that I have made and it's confusing the hell out of me.
I think I'm trying to supress myself, but I don't know how or what about...
I need a psychiatrist.
I've been talking to Steven Cleary alot more lately. He's different. Like not what I expected... It's....interesting. He says he's more than what he acts like at school. From what I have gathered from what I've been talking to him about it is so. He listens to... good music.. like sweet music, from people with amazing voices. I can't describe it. It isn't natural. He had me downloading all this stuff and I didn't find anything I didn't like. I wish he was more like this.. I don't know..more often. I'm not really being clear, but do I really have to? He's not. It hurts my head trying to figure out what I mean. Try to bare with me, I don't quite know what I'm saying. I guess I won't bother trying to figure myself or him out. He's an enigma wrapped in a kinundrum wearing a riddle.
I feel so blank. LIke fresh paper. Please write on me because this isn't a great feeling. It's so differen't.. I can't trust the judgements that I have made and it's confusing the hell out of me.
I think I'm trying to supress myself, but I don't know how or what about...
I need a psychiatrist.