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i realize this is not going to help this but maybe i'll become more reclusive already than i am, read even more than i already do. whatever i do now is pointless; i am a very adaptive person, but i need to make myself not adapt to this; i dont want to cast myself in the mold of a town i'm soon leaving. my strategy has been: pass time and wait for the next place scheduled soon enough, and adapt to living there with all my heart, and in that flurry of change i will myself be able to change. maybe if thats my attitude i should withdraw even more, it makes no sense to exist socially intentionally thoughtlessly.