a conversation with chris and tabitha about sex
today. now of course the situations vis a vis both those persons are or feel complicated. a lot dos now that i dont want to sleep around anymore. what does this mean?
and that my desires have shifted to the old house, to use a phrase from the smiths- meaning, historey and literature and even socialism, are once again of great interest. (Also, strangely rekindled is my desire to be good friends for ryan. not that it went away, but it is newly urgent).
it seems to me that in this situation, that next year going to WM will be different than any time before going there. especially pending this summer i am going to have a lot of old ideas smashed inevitably and want that. i will go to school maybe newly capable of having a real relationship.- or of being celibate. i would like a relationship i think, if just in that it would be awkward otherwise for me. or maybe not actually. it could be my weimar. who knows.
also, btw, i have been reading socialists althusser liebknecht kamenev luxemburg lacan proudhon etc frantically lately, the dialectics are a return home. like a cotton comoforter
i already plan mixtapes that are months in the future if they happen at all
and that my desires have shifted to the old house, to use a phrase from the smiths- meaning, historey and literature and even socialism, are once again of great interest. (Also, strangely rekindled is my desire to be good friends for ryan. not that it went away, but it is newly urgent).
it seems to me that in this situation, that next year going to WM will be different than any time before going there. especially pending this summer i am going to have a lot of old ideas smashed inevitably and want that. i will go to school maybe newly capable of having a real relationship.- or of being celibate. i would like a relationship i think, if just in that it would be awkward otherwise for me. or maybe not actually. it could be my weimar. who knows.
also, btw, i have been reading socialists althusser liebknecht kamenev luxemburg lacan proudhon etc frantically lately, the dialectics are a return home. like a cotton comoforter
i already plan mixtapes that are months in the future if they happen at all