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Im sick of all this shit. I am sick of being different, being a fucking creep. Im sick of being the special person. I hate how i cannt socially interact. I hate how I always get the shit end of the stick. Im sick of how my brain works, i hate being a fucking idiot moran. and the sad thing is prob 90% of this shit is all in my head and that is what I hate the most. I try and pretend I am normal and like im happy and bla bla bla. But I'm fucking not. Im always screwing up, im always feeling like shit questioning all of my actions wondering if Im doing the right thing. I am sick of my life and everything in it. fucking christ all i want to do right now is go home and curl up in a ball but i cannt i have to be at this shit job for oh another 7hrs, all i want to do is hide from this shit. RUn home to mommy and have tell me everything is going to be allright. I have no fucking will power. what ever i set my mind to I fail at, miserably. What ever i do in life the same shit allways comes back and haunts me