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to be perfectly honest, i haven't been this bored and unmotivated in awhile. each day brings classroom sleepiness, even after a great 9 hours of sleep, my head still tilts down to the comfort of the desk because subject matter lacks and followed by that sleepiness is a homework assignment that merely is busy work in retrospect. yes, this is toned down from the usual pain of massive projects due in very little time, but then again that really wasn't "challenging", it was just another form of busy work, much busier.
laaaaaaaaaaaame. i want something better, but i feel if i step off my current path all hell will break lose and confusion will be so great it'll make my mind wish for busy work over the confusion. the worst part of all is that time is moving so quickly i feel as if im losing out on something more important, but i'm so focused on getting college done theres no room to stop and figure out whats missing.
seems im stuck in some large conundrum that has no real answer. all of it is speculative and really has no real definition.
fuck.
laaaaaaaaaaaame. i want something better, but i feel if i step off my current path all hell will break lose and confusion will be so great it'll make my mind wish for busy work over the confusion. the worst part of all is that time is moving so quickly i feel as if im losing out on something more important, but i'm so focused on getting college done theres no room to stop and figure out whats missing.
seems im stuck in some large conundrum that has no real answer. all of it is speculative and really has no real definition.
fuck.