Reflections: Thoughts
I am a thankless, ungrateful-- oh wait, you don't really start "happy" entries like that, do you? :)
Well, I was just hit by a thought that even in the most dire of circumstances, there is always a positive side to it - no matter what that it entails. It may be blasphemous or callous what I'm saying, but, to me... it's turned out to be like that. In those rather unhappy times that I've been having for the past two weeks, when I was nearly publicly wallowing in my self-imposed misery - I also finally realized how many good and concerned friends I had. Friends that genuinely care. It really amazes me, leaves me breathless, to think that somebody behind that pc screen would be furrowing their eyebrows and thinking up advices on how to help me with this and that. And instead of thanking, I disappear indefinitely, like a selfish child. I hope I will be of help to you too, guys, whenever you need it.
Just to reflect on it - there was a moment, on my birthday, when I thought that everything was going wrong. A sudden rain came in, after a whole week of suffocating heat - and how fresh that was! The rain poured down on buildings and asphalt and people, and then in a few minutes, there was sun coming out as well! It was priceless, I felt like, sillily, it was Nature's gift to me to cheer me up, to let me know that better times are a-coming. And come they did!
New friends, and smiles, and happy exceptions - my visa is going to be extended! - and dear friends writing back... all going so well, it's almost unbelievable. And I want to preserve that moment. I want to remember that feeling of quiet happiness, when you smile in the most unexpected situations, just because it feels good - inside.
Thank you all. :)
Well, I was just hit by a thought that even in the most dire of circumstances, there is always a positive side to it - no matter what that it entails. It may be blasphemous or callous what I'm saying, but, to me... it's turned out to be like that. In those rather unhappy times that I've been having for the past two weeks, when I was nearly publicly wallowing in my self-imposed misery - I also finally realized how many good and concerned friends I had. Friends that genuinely care. It really amazes me, leaves me breathless, to think that somebody behind that pc screen would be furrowing their eyebrows and thinking up advices on how to help me with this and that. And instead of thanking, I disappear indefinitely, like a selfish child. I hope I will be of help to you too, guys, whenever you need it.
Just to reflect on it - there was a moment, on my birthday, when I thought that everything was going wrong. A sudden rain came in, after a whole week of suffocating heat - and how fresh that was! The rain poured down on buildings and asphalt and people, and then in a few minutes, there was sun coming out as well! It was priceless, I felt like, sillily, it was Nature's gift to me to cheer me up, to let me know that better times are a-coming. And come they did!
New friends, and smiles, and happy exceptions - my visa is going to be extended! - and dear friends writing back... all going so well, it's almost unbelievable. And I want to preserve that moment. I want to remember that feeling of quiet happiness, when you smile in the most unexpected situations, just because it feels good - inside.
Thank you all. :)