I Don't Have To Take That...
So as I mentioned the other day, I'm starting a new job. Money is not just tight, it's non-existent. Yesterday, my lights went out at my complex, and I thought with the cold weather, the service was out in the area, but it wasn't. So I called my apartment manager to see if maintenance could switch the main breaker for me. They informed me that I still owed money for part of January's rent and all of this month, and they told me the total. I was shocked that I owed as much as I did, because I thought that with getting the new job, I would work on getting things caught up. The weren't going to turn my electricity back on until I made some kind of arrangement, so I called my mother. Now I normally don't like to call my mother for anything, but my electricity was out and it's really cold here right now, and I start a new job soon, so I need hot water for showers, cooking, etc. Now she didn't like to hear that this was my situation, and she was very upset about the news. I have bad nerves as it is, and whenever she talks to me in a strong and angry tone, I take it personally. I'm asking for help, and I know I'm going to hear a lecture, so I take it, but this time it's different. She called me a little while ago to tell me that she called my apartment manager to confirm how much I owe so she can take care of the bill for me. She really, really doesn't know how to speak to anyone. She has a very rude and angry tone, and is kinda a bully when she's on the phone. She's got my nerves severely rattled, and I have a doctor appointment in a couple of hours. They will take my blood pressure and it will be high as hell. I don't need this stress. I'm starting a new job tomorrow, so I won't have any money for a few days. I have no money for food or to do my laundry, so I'm going to have to figure something out there. My cable/internet will go out soon, which I'll turn on when I get my first check. I
am five months into a consent judgement payment order, and this job couldn't come at a better time; and I'll actually have the payment for this month. My rent for March will be late, but at least it will be paid by me this time. I know things will work out better for me now that I'll be working again. My health is holding up well considering the issues I have, and I'm feeling truly grateful for that. I don't think that after this that I will be asking my mother for much help again. I understand that she is pinched financially, but I'm asking for help, like she would prefer I do, however it's coming at a price. One of my goals is to start a program for medical billing and coding, and I plan to do it. It will take time to get there. I have to get to a good place first, and I don't think I can do it, if I'm treated like an ass for asking for help. I thank the Lord that I'm able to work again and be like every other person. It's the single most important thing to me. Being at the mercy of others is very stressful. I just had to get this off my chest. Until next time...
am five months into a consent judgement payment order, and this job couldn't come at a better time; and I'll actually have the payment for this month. My rent for March will be late, but at least it will be paid by me this time. I know things will work out better for me now that I'll be working again. My health is holding up well considering the issues I have, and I'm feeling truly grateful for that. I don't think that after this that I will be asking my mother for much help again. I understand that she is pinched financially, but I'm asking for help, like she would prefer I do, however it's coming at a price. One of my goals is to start a program for medical billing and coding, and I plan to do it. It will take time to get there. I have to get to a good place first, and I don't think I can do it, if I'm treated like an ass for asking for help. I thank the Lord that I'm able to work again and be like every other person. It's the single most important thing to me. Being at the mercy of others is very stressful. I just had to get this off my chest. Until next time...